Sorry I know I'm tiring you...

I feel like I'm being drowned...

I want to be alone... I thought that for once I would have time alone in my room... it's not even 3 hours that my sis left and she's back already... the minute I saw her I wanted to start crying... I don't want a life... I want to stay locked inside my room for the next week... for the rest of my life... I don't want to talk to anyone, I don't want to see anyone, I don't want to get up and I don't want to do anything...

I just want to stay in my room... lying in my bed with tumblr on scrolling down... am I asking for something difficult?

I don't want to go to uni... I want to sleep, I want to stay at home and sleep... and wake up late and not get out of my room... I don't want to go out...

I hate this...

I hate everything and everyone

I want to forget about all of them

I want to forget who I am... I want to delete everything and start over

or just sit alone...

I don't want them in my life anymore!!!

2011/11/15

Today was quite an awful day...

I was sleepy all day... I still am actually... I feel kind of down...

I had lots of chocolate which wasn't good but I'll gain like 100gr which I'll easily lose tomorrow I hope...

I'm dieting till Friday and then I'm done... at the weekend I've been invited for a sleepover at my (other) best friend's house... I'm sure we'll have fun *-*

But for now... I just wish today never happened... ofc that's impossible and I shouldn't wish for things like that but basically nothing happened today that could offer me just a bit of a boost and make me think today as a good day...

Plus I'm scared of tomorrow... I know I won't be home till 5 o'clock but what then? Will I be able to make it till 10 safe? I surely hope so but I'm so scared... I'm always scared... Pff... (_ _。)