Replay ☆ 1412

yah, i waited for studento have a major?

No it was before major

i was burning out a little bit

and tired 

then next day we got t-shirts from Indonesia

our friend has a shop there TREES UNIVERSE 

i liked.

so,eome said me, it is typical indonesian style

so, it is more cool!

he asked to take somephotos, so we did it with sister 

and of course, ! buildings of med university

hello from stomatology corpus 

yeah, i understand that double rainbow isnt unique,

but it was so bright and charming

i couldnt stand and photo!

it was three days of Easter 

(o´･ω･`o)ﾉｼ

i like such кулич

so it is my reason to eat it 

 

spring came suddenly and trees becagreen in one night!

i fall in love with nature everyday

and bird songs make it better!

21th of April libranight

and one man told us about India when he visited it in 1980

even if i know some indian guys it was amazing to listen about his travel

he showed us his photos even ~

so after that we had breaktime

wafles ~

my favourite evaporated milk inside this cookie

before libranight we got such green ribbons, because title of this year in country is Ecology

hat day i had a major with three my groups 

and i helped my teacher with about groups

i tell when i played with them in charades, someone took a video or ph with me and one guy sentme photo..it was so suddenly!

after that they told me i was pretty and good reacher!

ah, it is ok.

also, when i had second major with my students one of them said 'i am the best teacher'

i asked him five times becaiuse i didnt hear words  

and today my students asked if i will teach them semester?

i answered no then student said he won't come this class if it will not me

haha i know how it is easy to come to my class

and they do it soecially but i am glad anyway

i am thankful to them, they give me joy and it supports me a lot

so after a major i went to the shop with sister and we bought these rings

where is mine?

(´・ω・｀)

so after that we went aunt house

fishes, so a lot of fishes

it was rainy day and cloud was pretty dark, pretty gray

oh, before it i bought many books and took one Хоссейни щий за ветром"

i heard about this book many times and finally i got this

besideit i took The King Speech, The Long way by St. King. Orwell '1984'. i guess i did write about this

after that i took some books about Renaissance 

i need to prepare report (or article is better) about one aspect, about renais.antrophology 

so, the day before yesterday i went to library to find some information about L.B. Alberti and Renais.

i did find these books for the beggining

i opened new side of that period and i was glad to know it!

so, this time no one came to library and in whole salle i was alone

there was cold and light 

so, for next week i should prepare a perfomance about modern pop music and connect it with my subject

i need to correct my another article

i nto prepare a report about Pascal! ah, i forgot and read two topics about math and philosophy

let me think what i forgot about!

eh.. i had another homework too,,,

ahh, i need write nto remember all 

-kahara

Replay ☆ 1411

to be honest, i even dont remember when was it, because usually we celebrate Day of Poetry on 21th of March

but it was a few days later

yeah, do you remember i told about literature club? so these guys are part of our team

not all but the most famous and great w

i will be miss about one guy from left 

i remember how he always told about us

and that i got fat and cheeks

and he loves us as we him 

Our teacher Tatiana Grigorievna Sudakova! 

our kind and lovely master 

and the most left person is..the most young guy who manages our club now is. . . Ilya 

so it was wonderful day for us

 .. . .

and few days later was Sri Lankan night!

I just leave it here

it was amazing and i'm glad they invited me 

Vinaya and Hadjana!

my lovely students 

my children, as i said today to another my group

i become really happy to see them

it happens in one moment

even if we arent friends they support me with their smiles

i aprecite it a lot

and, ah i forgot the number of this day

i just visited class about russian philosophy

and took this photo

because of dark grey clouds

they were amazing

as usual, 

and recently i got one letter for my birthday

it arrived after one month from my birthday 

and cock origami

so nice （＾_＾）

Thank you very much

before this moment i was too upset to talk and ... it was a small light of sun on that day

just my eyes 

nothing more

soba with shrimps and 

nah, it was good food

after that i went to cafe again and ordered this 

i asked inside 'whyyyyyy, Masha, whyyy, it is so expensive, and you dont get money till 20th of April, dooont' but i did it!

this moment when i asked one of him to meet to me once!

He will graduate from uni this summer and i will misst him so much

you can think 'Masha, you are awful liar'

no, i dont talk so much as you think and, it likes my students

i love these guys

and thankful to them 

i told something started to change

may be it is this period?

ah, i would like but they leave me soon and i back to my beginning

(ノ_＜)

you know when i said them 'bye' i wanted cry

i felt so much that everything is temporary

everything!

yea, it is different when you tell and understand it

i think soon i'll get mental crisis again

i dont know what to say 

after meeting i wanted to be alone and didnt talk to anyone

i felt as pathetic as foolish

and

i just cant accept communication so fast even if i look so sociable, it is only appearance

like O, Wilde said about people and masks

yeah, exactly

ahh

today i awoke at 7.00 and visited one class

about russian philosophy

then i was free till 17.00

and we had psychological training there we wrote good sides of our characters

and i got many good words

ahh,

they told me they like my class

my sly students haha

but it is ok

i love them too

and i said it to them, i waited for their class a lot

i wonder what will on saturday? worse? better?

after that we came to Tatiana Grigorievna to get great old books

and we got it!

so many and so great

Thank you very much!

Jung Joon Young (정준영) – SYMPATHY (공감) 

-kahara

Replay ☆ 1410

 

o, 8th of March we gave this flowers to mom 

when i had free times since teacher was busy i found this violet

moreover it was sunny day, not as today

Il pleut

these flowers are so fluffy 

and

gentle

i took some books and cant read it now

oh, may i got stress 

i feel like broken thing

it was so charming pink sunset

even more pink and more magnificent in reality

may i got illness

Jung Sung Ha – Fields Of Gold

-kahara

Replay ☆ 1409

 

i bought two new books

because i heard from my classmates about Апология сумасшедшего and story about it, why Chaadaev wrote it

and a few days later mom did bring four tickets to the theatre

on Hamplet play

uhm, i was preffer Don Juan than it, but,,anyway i liked how they told, their phrases ~

the main character, actor and Hamlet, finally in the black outfit, in the center

I got advice to try cook sambal tomato 

i cooked it with chicken

and..it was so spicy 

 

im glad Kin said me about this reception! 

but after that i got stomach ache

. . .

. . .

but, to be honest, last month if i dont have nightmare as before, then i got stoach ache every day

sigh

uhm

recently, 7th of March we went with suster to aunt

light salad, cheeses, meat ~

and coffee with zefir and nuts

 

this is special kind of tulip

so gentle pink colour 

on the next day we went to our orthodox church

im not fan of it and i know a little bit about it, but

i so admired with interior

i know it is pretty old church and yesterday i was there first time and i got so great pleasunt to be there

as a memory of history of our small province

i would like to tell to someone about my mind, sigh

i feel a joy of life because i have know many things, many poeple

and i feel emptiness because i lost almost everything of it and i will lose it

and yeah, you must keep go on and be patient to that, but

ah, it is hard to be happy all day, all moments of week

even if i smile someone see my sadness into eyes, how can they see it? 

my students told me compliments...

ah, many people tell it to me, but..if i have so many plueses, why it doesnt help me? 

. . . 

. . .

. . .

in the evening of 8th of March we went to our grannies and uncle

we ate a lot and delicious

we got пряники

International woman's day

i saw so many happy women who got flowers so a lot ~

and we bought this cake

finally i ate my part 

a small photosession with my knitted sweater  

and last time i have been sitting in library to make an article..first time i have no idea how continue it..

sigh and when i wrote a little bit i saved it..but..but all my documents in my flesh-card removed...

i dont have this documents in my pc

i tried to smilled for just, but it is hard to keep it if you dont have stimules for it

how to keep smile all time? or most of time?

- kahara

Replay ☆ 1408

yesterday we went together with sister to Art-cafe

one our friend invited to perform a lecture about ethique to blind and

having poor vision people so we made it well, i guess (･ω･ﾉ)ﾉ after that we went to librarian who we met about 6 years ago in our library so, yesterday we have known she replace library and because we didnt be at this area we went to another place where we can find her it's pity but we didn find her there yesterday was so great weather, clear blue sky, sunlight and chilling wind and after that we went to our aunt to give her some things and we drank a coffee together and ate salad of course  ah, im trying to be happy, to smile a lot but than more im smiling than more i feel emptiness and loneliness than more im talking to ppl than more i want hide under my cover  i would like to be invisiable  you know, last time i didnt think about him, but he dreams to me am i so missing of? . . .  . . . . . . even today one librarian from department of philosophy asked me - did you find a guy for these days?- ah, how can i find anyone if they ignore me or happening something hopeless stupid i need to cink into books as before! as i never have been known about anyone so much i know it is very bad to bring book to library late but,, but i sincerely thought i must back it on murch.. i would to extend my reading but librarian in another library scilded me and didnt back book, sigh i dont know how to continue my book, if they dont want give me  book i dont want come to there again but only there are books i need, sigh today when i came to university, since i have passive practical work, i need choose some lectures to visit them, so i did choose some and..when i came to departmend, then head of department invited to him class, sigh it was a class about logical tasks again why so... why do i catch these classes? im full zero about such things  so after this class i back to department again and took one free book :3 My adoring writer : Edgar Poe! ah, i would like have another book but... im glad fully to have this one! and i took another two books in our local library: 1) Laurent de Graeve - Le mauvais Genre. this book is continuin great book by abbat Prevo 'Manon Lescaut' 2) 'Maman a tort' by Michel Bussi and also i started to knit another sweater green one, i want to knit it well so, i started to watch one new anime ACCA you know, i liked it w i like graphic, music, character, their behaviour and synopsis ah last time i love to listen one song by JJY. it is PSYHO 'My heart is filled with the love for you But you don’t love me at all My love grows over time I love you more everyday Have you ever loved me' 정준영 (Jung Joon Young) – 화가  -kahara