i bought two new books
because i heard from my classmates about Апология сумасшедшего and story about it, why Chaadaev wrote it
and a few days later mom did bring four tickets to the theatre
on Hamplet play
uhm, i was preffer Don Juan than it, but,,anyway i liked how they told, their phrases ~
the main character, actor and Hamlet, finally in the black outfit, in the center
I got advice to try cook sambal tomato 
i cooked it with chicken
and..it was so spicy 
im glad Kin said me about this reception!
but after that i got stomach ache
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but, to be honest, last month if i dont have nightmare as before, then i got stoach ache every day
sigh
uhm
recently, 7th of March we went with suster to aunt
light salad, cheeses, meat ~
and coffee with zefir and nuts
this is special kind of tulip
so gentle pink colour
on the next day we went to our orthodox church
im not fan of it and i know a little bit about it, but
i so admired with interior
i know it is pretty old church and yesterday i was there first time and i got so great pleasunt to be there
as a memory of history of our small province
i would like to tell to someone about my mind, sigh
i feel a joy of life because i have know many things, many poeple
and i feel emptiness because i lost almost everything of it and i will lose it
and yeah, you must keep go on and be patient to that, but
ah, it is hard to be happy all day, all moments of week
even if i smile someone see my sadness into eyes, how can they see it?
my students told me compliments...
ah, many people tell it to me, but..if i have so many plueses, why it doesnt help me?
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in the evening of 8th of March we went to our grannies and uncle
we ate a lot and delicious
we got пряники
International woman's day
i saw so many happy women who got flowers so a lot ~
and we bought this cake
finally i ate my part
a small photosession with my knitted sweater 
and last time i have been sitting in library to make an article..first time i have no idea how continue it..
sigh and when i wrote a little bit i saved it..but..but all my documents in my flesh-card removed...
i dont have this documents in my pc
i tried to smilled for just, but it is hard to keep it if you dont have stimules for it
how to keep smile all time? or most of time?
- kahara