today after plushi went to work,i went to sleep again,because i was so tired.
as i slept,i dreamed about my mother.
that she is at home again and we sit on the balcony and talked a lot.
after we talked a while,in my dream i realized,that she never will be back at home and that i never can talk to her anymore...
so i started to cry in my dream.
then i woke up myself hard breathing and also started to cry in real life.
to think about that she never will be back and that i never can talk to her hurts so much,that i could cry for days i guess.
but i know,that my life must go on and i do many things not to think about.
it´s hard and it´s harder when i´m alone at home...
thanks to plushi,that she´s always by my side ♥
and to one friend,i´m so dissappointed that you weren´t here to my birthday party,although we talked one month before...that really hurts,because i need my friends now.
anyway...now enjoying the wonderful weather here in berlin
bye