私の中の武道
知人や友人の中には、「かわいそうなアレックス、
私が達成した武道はまだ恥ずかしいレベルですが、何よりもまず、
戦いはまだ始まったばかりです! 毎日、毎日、
私は孫子の「兵法」という本を読みましたが、
私は毎日、左半身全体の灼熱感、左足の腫れ、
私が闘わなければならないもう一つの問題があります。
千利休を迎えた豊臣秀吉が、
2023年8月といえば、脳卒中、正確には脳出血を起こしてから
戦士になるために!
(*)私の日本語についてアドバイスをくれた友人の前田秀雄さんに感謝
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Some acquaintances and even some friends make comments like "Oh, poor you, Alex! You can't practice martial arts anymore” or "You can't do karate-do anymore." In fact, I don't mind their comments. In fact, I don't care about their comments.
I am shy about the degrees I have achieved but, first and foremost, I am an aspirant for a martial artist.
The battle has just begun! Every day, every single day, I have a new challenge to deal with.
I have read Sun Tzu's book "The Art of War" and I can't find any situation better to use that book than in my present condition. I always remember, much more than before, the part where Sun Tzu talks about "knowing your terrain". That's what I had to do when I first used my walker. I studied very hard what I could and what I couldn't do with it. My walker is my weapon. I have to use it well. I have to know my limitations when I use it. I have to know my weapon's range: short, medium, or long range.
Every single day, I fight against my limitations which are a burning sensation on my whole left side, swelling, and pain in my left foot. Sometimes, my left arm and my left leg shake when I move with my walker. I have other minor symptoms, too. Sometimes these symptoms appear isolatedly, sometimes some of them appear, and sometimes all of them show up. Every morning I have to evaluate myself, and my situation and think about my possible movements. Sun Tzu and other strategists have advised me very well. Thank you very much!
As for August 2023, it's been one year and 10 months since I had a stroke, more precisely, brain bleeding. I don't know what's going to happen next, I have to face up to everyday reality and work out a strategy for the medium and long term. Sometimes I might lose a battle but the important is to focus on working hard to win the war. I must have resilience. I must never retreat. I must never surrender.
Isn't it to be a warrior?
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