So, my Japanese Rosetta Stone should arrive this Monday, which is perfect. Tuesday, I can begin learning a language I have intended to learn since i took it in high school.. Not sure why I gave up, though it probably has something to do with my fear of failure. Well, no longer! I actually took the dog for a jog last night, I have been eating smaller and healthier portions, and I have at least attempted to play my guitar though it hurts my fingers because my hands are small. 
I learned one stupid song but it's only three notes so it's really not impressive.
I also came out to my parents on Tuesday. It was a lot easier than I thought it would be because they were so quick to accept it. Of course, everyone worries about Anthony in this situation and I do, too. Because I do love him but in a different way than he loves me. One of my best friends suggested I at least have a fling with a woman just to make sure but I'm not that kind of person. It's like I know deep down inside but I've been afraid of it for so long, afraid of going into something and fucking it up, thus scarring myself even more. I don't know why it's easier to have my heart broken by a man than it would be a woman, but that's how I feel. That's always my problem, though. Afraid to just jump in and see where the tide takes me, leaving behind dry land. (which makes the fact that my nickname is Fish very ironic!)
Something happened this morning that set my heart on fire but I have chosen to keep it quiet except from my two best friends. This is something I am still dealing with, after all, and most people think I am just living in dream land and that it will all blow over. I don't know.. Have you ever had someone walk by you and your hairs all stand on end? How do you forget something like that so easily?
I wonder how this all translates into Nihongo? Can anyone understand it? I can put together what the translator makes of Japanese characters but sometimes it's a little difficult. I can't wait until I learn more Japanese and can at least communicate a little in stead of.. Watashi wa sukoshi Nihongo wakarimasu. I hope Idid that right. It's been so long since high school.
Back to doing work for me.. I'll be on a cloud all day so maybe that'll make my job less annoying. Can't wait to go back to school! Cosmetology will be way morefun than answering phone..
I learned one stupid song but it's only three notes so it's really not impressive. I also came out to my parents on Tuesday. It was a lot easier than I thought it would be because they were so quick to accept it. Of course, everyone worries about Anthony in this situation and I do, too. Because I do love him but in a different way than he loves me. One of my best friends suggested I at least have a fling with a woman just to make sure but I'm not that kind of person. It's like I know deep down inside but I've been afraid of it for so long, afraid of going into something and fucking it up, thus scarring myself even more. I don't know why it's easier to have my heart broken by a man than it would be a woman, but that's how I feel. That's always my problem, though. Afraid to just jump in and see where the tide takes me, leaving behind dry land. (which makes the fact that my nickname is Fish very ironic!)
Something happened this morning that set my heart on fire but I have chosen to keep it quiet except from my two best friends. This is something I am still dealing with, after all, and most people think I am just living in dream land and that it will all blow over. I don't know.. Have you ever had someone walk by you and your hairs all stand on end? How do you forget something like that so easily?
I wonder how this all translates into Nihongo? Can anyone understand it? I can put together what the translator makes of Japanese characters but sometimes it's a little difficult. I can't wait until I learn more Japanese and can at least communicate a little in stead of.. Watashi wa sukoshi Nihongo wakarimasu. I hope Idid that right. It's been so long since high school.
Back to doing work for me.. I'll be on a cloud all day so maybe that'll make my job less annoying. Can't wait to go back to school! Cosmetology will be way morefun than answering phone..