Broken heart
Can someone fill this gap in my heart? 
I've never really propose to anyone, and after 2 months of proposing I got rejected.
Her respond was that she wasn't ready for a relationship.
And now she has completely walked out of my life again.
Even though we aren't together, or if she never wants to see me again.. I wish she could find a guy that's better than me. Some one that treats her real good and someone that she loves with all her heart. I know I'll never be that guy, but I will always love her.
No matter what happens, she'll have a place in my heart.
Maybe I was never meant to be with anyone...
It's been 3 weeks since I got rejected, and I still don't know how I should feel, I should be over it by now but I'm not.
I just have this feeling of sadness and loneliness.
Maybe this was my first real love.
I thought I was finally ready for a girlfriend, someone that I can share everything with, but turns out it was never meant to be. I try to hide this feelings by buying things, eating things, and exercising, but none of these things work.
I'm not a talkative person, I don't know how to make people happy, I just know that I should tell them everything that I feel and think, no secrets whatsoever. Treat her like how I feel about her, but I guess even that wasn't enough.
But my heart is still beating
, life still evolves around me... nothing is going to stop for me. Even though I'm sad, I have to stay strong and get stronger, because if she ever needs me, I'll be there to support her. I know words doesn't mean anything, but when the time comes I promise I'll do all I can for her.
How come its raining every time someone cries?
I've never really propose to anyone, and after 2 months of proposing I got rejected.
Her respond was that she wasn't ready for a relationship.
And now she has completely walked out of my life again.
Even though we aren't together, or if she never wants to see me again.. I wish she could find a guy that's better than me. Some one that treats her real good and someone that she loves with all her heart. I know I'll never be that guy, but I will always love her.
No matter what happens, she'll have a place in my heart.
Maybe I was never meant to be with anyone...
It's been 3 weeks since I got rejected, and I still don't know how I should feel, I should be over it by now but I'm not.
I just have this feeling of sadness and loneliness.
Maybe this was my first real love.
I thought I was finally ready for a girlfriend, someone that I can share everything with, but turns out it was never meant to be. I try to hide this feelings by buying things, eating things, and exercising, but none of these things work.
I'm not a talkative person, I don't know how to make people happy, I just know that I should tell them everything that I feel and think, no secrets whatsoever. Treat her like how I feel about her, but I guess even that wasn't enough.
But my heart is still beating
, life still evolves around me... nothing is going to stop for me. Even though I'm sad, I have to stay strong and get stronger, because if she ever needs me, I'll be there to support her. I know words doesn't mean anything, but when the time comes I promise I'll do all I can for her. How come its raining every time someone cries?
My recent update + fashion updates
I've been quite busy since the new semester has started already.
So I didn't really have time to write any new blogs.
But recently, I've been getting this perverted comments here.
If they're real, I really appreciated u taking an interest in me, but I'm not really of an "open" guy.
And if it is fake, I beg you please stop sending me these comments.
And my japanese isn't really that good...
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Well anyways, I would like to make an update of what is going really hot.
I'm not really a fashionable person, but I sorta know what is "in".
Well first of all due to the recent renewal of the beatles albums, and the new beatles rockband game, the beatles are making a huge comeback. Just look at the new UNO fog bar CM, they've already caught the Beatles trend.
資生堂「ウーノ」 CM
But recently I've really like the 60's tennis trend, wearing those classic polo, leather boots.
Fred Perry , Lacoste , Nike men fall's court polo .
And those 80's t-shirt-jeans, hats + necklace looks really nice too.
So basically, if I have a say here, I guess the 60's & the 80's are really grooving!!!
So I didn't really have time to write any new blogs.
But recently, I've been getting this perverted comments here.
If they're real, I really appreciated u taking an interest in me, but I'm not really of an "open" guy.
And if it is fake, I beg you please stop sending me these comments.
And my japanese isn't really that good...
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Well anyways, I would like to make an update of what is going really hot.
I'm not really a fashionable person, but I sorta know what is "in".
Well first of all due to the recent renewal of the beatles albums, and the new beatles rockband game, the beatles are making a huge comeback. Just look at the new UNO fog bar CM, they've already caught the Beatles trend.
資生堂「ウーノ」 CM
But recently I've really like the 60's tennis trend, wearing those classic polo, leather boots.
Fred Perry , Lacoste , Nike men fall's court polo .
And those 80's t-shirt-jeans, hats + necklace looks really nice too.
So basically, if I have a say here, I guess the 60's & the 80's are really grooving!!!
Cosplay
I never really thought about cosplaying much.
It's been a trend for so long, but I were never that interested in it.
But recently I got this urge to look like Genesis Rhapsodos and Gintoki Sakata.
Maybe because recently I feel like trying visual kei but since I look too feminine, it would make me look too much like a girl/ cross dresser. And in our society, we treat cross dressers like freaks...
So the only way that can make me look like Genesis/ Gintoki and normal to other ppl is to cosplay.
But living elsewhere other than Japan has been really difficult, since almost no one anywhere else in the world take cosplay as a trend. Everyone will just stare at you like you're a freak or something. So I'm only planning to dress up in Halloween or in some anime convention just for fun.
Gackt = Genesis, so basically I'm trying to look like Gackt
But to look like Gintama I would need to get a haircut, since it's shorter, and I'll need a white hair spray too. And I don't wear wigs, since it looks too fake. So yea, basically I'm trying to look like both of this.
But I won't be coming back to Japan anytime soon, so I guess I'll just have to wait till Halloween that's two months from now.
But anyway, please continue to support cosplayers since they put so much time and effort in to their make ups and their costumes.
It's been a trend for so long, but I were never that interested in it.
But recently I got this urge to look like Genesis Rhapsodos and Gintoki Sakata.
Maybe because recently I feel like trying visual kei but since I look too feminine, it would make me look too much like a girl/ cross dresser. And in our society, we treat cross dressers like freaks...
So the only way that can make me look like Genesis/ Gintoki and normal to other ppl is to cosplay.
But living elsewhere other than Japan has been really difficult, since almost no one anywhere else in the world take cosplay as a trend. Everyone will just stare at you like you're a freak or something. So I'm only planning to dress up in Halloween or in some anime convention just for fun.
Gackt = Genesis, so basically I'm trying to look like Gackt
But to look like Gintama I would need to get a haircut, since it's shorter, and I'll need a white hair spray too. And I don't wear wigs, since it looks too fake. So yea, basically I'm trying to look like both of this.
But I won't be coming back to Japan anytime soon, so I guess I'll just have to wait till Halloween that's two months from now.
But anyway, please continue to support cosplayers since they put so much time and effort in to their make ups and their costumes.