this writing really jogs the mind as i really something i never actually thought about. i was mad at myslef for failin him. i really thought i could be the one to make him happy. i thought the problems i saw i could be the one to fix them. i had no reason to think about that or to think i would be the one to fix them but its a failure i set myself up with as i say t all the time you cant change something or make someon think they are wron when they dont think it themselves. I was in love with him. but i couldnt be with who theyw ere not because its badd fort hem but it bad for me who they became was not someone i wanted to be with but tey still elft and iw as sasdd because i still loved them even though for me they changed for the worse.