Ive been so confused latley im not sure what to do. My family tells me im so attractive that any guy would be liuvky to be with me yet i feel as if it is a lie. I lay in bed watching the same show over and over hopefully looking for answers but know they are not there. In fact i am not sure what questions i am looking for answers too. It sucks soooo bad. My day is the smae cycle slef loathing pron the smae show and then sleep. i wake up and repeats. im not even sure what my puepose is. I thought i had it figure dout but i was wornf. The line death hasd to be easy because life is hard rings true to me as everyday becomes a new dissapointment. He told me i was beautifu. those are the words that play in my head over and over again. Yet i know no i feel as if they where hollow. There are passions that i have had. Tyre goals i thought i wanted for myslef but they dont exist. Once again im rambling but that how i think its one thought until another opos in. Whats the point of one hoping or bidding for someone when the perfect one you found didnt work.