今日溫左成日書...

PRODUCTIVITY 真係好慢....




頭先又走左去同你玩SNOOKER lol...

ATILA你已經四連敗啦~~ HAHA ....




之後佢後佢黎左我間房溫書...

聽日8點考ACCT WOW.... 仲要仲未溫書..

真係服左你..

而家仲係地下訓到好似條死屍咁...

放心我會7點準時叫醒你- -"




每次同你傾計你你都inspire me a lot...

真係估唔到... 只係識左你1年幾....

你就成為全世界最了解我既人....




你講得O岩... 我係愈黎愈無自信....

好灰....

本身自己身處屬於自己既comfort zone...

偏偏要去自己最大既弱點...讀書....去同人比較...

當然... 死得好慘...

我咁做...都只係想證明我自己姐...




可能我真係睇錯左.... 以為...

人地grade比我高... 我就一定輸比人...

其實有好多因素影響到現時既成就?

grade比你差唔代表我真係比你差?

我知道而家作為一個loser...講咩都無用...

就算點講...你地都認為我係度溫藉口...




我太過在意讀書呢個小aspect度....?

應該已macro既角度去改變...?







" 一個成功既人... 每行一步都係跌落深淵..."

雖然聽上去...覺得好慘... 但係我明白...

呢d先叫磨練...





我已經無咩野輸唔起....

面對過太多失敗....

對挫折已經無咩感覺...




只係.... 想企返起身...

需要既EFFORT同代價真係好大.,,





而家開始慢慢步入我人生既谷底?

我知道接住呢三年... 一定唔會好過架啦...

其實仲有更加痛苦既野等緊我去面對

但係我一定唔會放棄!

我一定會撐住!!!




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好後悔.... 自己細個唔努力..

而家愈黎愈發覺自己真係好差....

距離相差好大....

點解我會入左ust....?

點解......?




好似同世界脫左節咁...

對外界既事都漠不關心...

都唔明白而家做人係為乜...

對明利既追求又無興趣...

愛情...?

好累........

已經無耐性再慢慢重新開始....








好矛盾....

而家自己都仲未解答到 WHY 呢個問題...

唔該快D比個答案我啦><

我好想成功...

但係我應該為左D咩...而要去成功??









好現實啊...

你令到我開始明白好多野...

睇到好多醜惡既一面...

可能因為咁...

O CAMP 一個真心朋友都識唔到 =P

哈哈...





你講得O岩... 要搵個明白自己...

又體諒自己既朋友真係好難...

我會好好珍惜你地 =]





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Today I convinced myself it was OK to give up


Don't take risks


Stick with the status quo


No drama...


Now is just not the time


But my reasons aren't reasons


They're just excuses


All I'm doing is hiding the truth


And the truth is that...


I'm scared


I'd scared that if I let myself to ..


be happy for a moment that..


The world is just going to come crushing down..


And I don't know if I can survive that...



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