no change

my friend asked me if I'm interested to visit a Japanese tuition on this Saturday.

I said yes to her and I told 'S' that I'll go to see it with her.

on the other day, he told me that I can send my daughter to any lesson.
so one day I told him that
im thinking to send her to Chinese class.

he told me 'why to Chinese class. better to go to Japanese'

so I drop my plan n thinking to send her to Japanese.

that's why I wanted to see the tuition
but the moment I said japanese,
he's shown fierce face n
'why Japanese? who wants Japanese? no body wants Japanese. for what u want her to learn Japanese?'

'u said better than Chinese! that's why n it's good to know. and also thinking to let her ur language too'

but he doesn't listen.
whatever I said he said
'u teach Japanese! no one wants Japanese'
n finally throw me a plastic bottle near him to me,

well, again again.

'u r such a domestic violence! always try to keep me quiet by violence!'

'because u make me angry. it's ur fault' he said

'no husband return violence even wife talk like me! u r making me angry but I never reply with violence'

'no wife talk like u! u r worst'

'like this u never think that its wrong to be violent, u r thinking right, so u never change'

then I'll give silence instead of violence as usual.

im sure I'm going to divorce after my girls grown up enough.

till then try to get a job n save enough money.

oh n one more thing.

it's already midnight but S hasn't come home
without letting me know
why he is late n when he would be back.

that's what 'best husband in the world' does.

on sports day

Kindergarten had sports day on 12-Nov, Sat 1pm.
We had to report kids at 12:30pm to the school.

In the morning around 8:30am, "S" left home for tennis as usual
and came home around 10:30am as usual.

I told him many times that we have to go to the school at 12:30pm
and event would start at 1pm
but he said he would be going out with his friend "L", it was around 11am.
He didn't mention what is the purpose of going out
and initially I thought it's for meeting as usual
but suddenly I thought of asking him the reason and called him.

He said "I'm going to buy camera with "L", it's nearby, I'll come to school by 1pm"

huh, are you mad?
why do you need to go to buy camera now?
sports event for kids would be starting soon !
it's not urgent to buy camera, we still have Sunday to do so.
But no use to tell him all those things.

In addition, he has taken car to buy camera.
I needed to take MRT to go to school in the rain with lot of stuff.
what a nice husband.

And the sports even started at 1pm.
Around 1:10pm, he called me and said
'the shop is very crowded, buying camera soon and coming'

then I noticed that the shop is not nearby
but electronic fair in convention centre in the city.

And sports day event ended around 2:30pm, earlier than scheduled
and he came around 3pm.

And the worst thing is that
he met one of younger one's classmate's parents
and telling them that he missed the sports day
because he went to buy a camera!!

It's so hopeless...
What kind of  father miss such a good, once a year event for the kids
to buy camera?!
I told them it wouldn't look nice to say you said so
but he thought it's ok to say, because it's true.
If the reason was 'business', it's ok but not buying camera !!

and saying "i'll take care of kids when we divorce." time to time.
You are not qualified.

slammed down

at breakfast time on 24-oct,

my daughter said 'a mom dissapear dad, and she dissapear herself' with big laugh

after seeing a scene in a cartoon.

she'd just said that the scene was really funny for her.

but "S" said 'your mother educated you like this, that's why you said like that'

huh?

i thought he was blaming me for daugter's wrong english.

i glared at him for his words.

then suddenly, he said 'what?!' and threw a slice of bread to my face.

I really upset and pick up the bread and threw it back to his face.

and that was not enough for me to calm my feeling down,

so do the same for 2 more times.

( actually, that was also not enough for the humilation. )

then he stood up and kicked my back

and grabbed my hair and pull my head

and slammed me down to the floor.

don't know how but my ribs got few red lines,

my skin of my elbow peeled off though the floor was smooth marble,

knee also the same though my knee was covered by pants.

after all these violence, what he said was

'because you threw bread more than me'

so i replied, 'is the 2 more throwing bread = kicking + pulling hair + slam down?'

he said ' because you pushed me to do that'

this is what he always says.

no husband in the world do this even they get angry with wife.

that's called domestic violence.

if i said so, he said all the wife was much better than you

that's why they don't need to do that.

no point talking to him.

he is thinking he is right, violence also justified for him

it's all my fault, it's all my fault.

and anything i said, his second word is

'i'll cancel your phone line, internet, air ticket'

and said 'i'll talk to lawer, children will be with me, you can't take them'

sorry kids and stupid me