This month I became 20 years old.
Since last year, I have been longing to have a boyfriend.
Then my female cousin said that it's about time that I have one...
OMG...
Where in the world should I find a boyfriend?
Guys around here are all gays.
I have just taken my dinner; ate 2 donuts, junkfood and roasted pig and rice. It is unhealthy. And what's more, I usually eat these kinds of food. I don't eat vegetable. I can eat fruits but not always. Then I drink chocolate milk. But my overall lifestyle is not healthy. Is this the reason I sometimes feel sad and lonely?
I am right now.
Sigh.
Aside from unhealthy lifestyle, I have a family problem. This has been a problem since I was a child, yet we do nothing about it. I hate my mother. I feel not cared by her. And I feel bad about myself because of her. My father also hates my mother. So we live together in a house but we are like strangers towards each other.
How to solve this problem?
The only way I can forgive my mother is that she herself change. How? Then she must follow my orders and instructions. She should be obedient. I am more mother than my mother.
I do enjoy dancing, biking, walking, and talking with foreigners. But I always wish that I do them with someone special to me.
So how to make myself happy?
1) eat healthy food
2) fix family problem especially mother
3) have boyfriend
I have not come back to my parents' house for a month.
That is because I am dealing with a problem in my department.
I have a complaint against my professor.
I hope she changes next time. If not, she should be fired.
It's been a long time.
These days I have been doing something for my own department. After that, my target is the entire university. Then, I want to clean the entire island.
But recently, I can't help but be worried about my friend.
I hope he is okay.
I burst into tears when I remembered this song.
This was the good bye song of that Japanese.
Many girls and women were left heartbroken, including me.
I was 14 years old at that time.
But before he left, the man confessed his feelings for me.
A letter was supposed to be sent to me.
But it never arrived.
What did he want to say to me?
I had always blamed the post office.
But actually, it's me who didn't listen well.
http://megalodon.jp/2011-1130-0115-37/ameblo.jp/orangefloor544/entry-11093248100.html
This early morning, I was checking my phone when all of a sudden I heard a loud bang outside my room.
My heart raced.
But immediately after it occured, I didn't try to go outside to check the source of the bang.
But the first person in my mind when it happened is my father.
I was apprehensive of what that bang could be and what it meant.
I realize I'm worried about him, after all.
