......the thing you wanna see the most.
I guess so.
I'm not sure if it's wrong or right. But sometimes it does mean like that.
I remember the day before my birthday, I was hanging around all alone at Fukuoka.
I had a dream about me, at my house, having dinner with my family.
I guessed I miss my family so much. But I don't think I miss anybody else or some special place except my house.
When I get back, I know that I have to be busy with my school things, or something would irritated me for sure.
I guessed right. Haha
Now I'm in my table, learning like a crazy student but when you know you can't decide your grade even how hard you try, studying is such a torture.
I'm in a situation that is much terrible than I thought now.
That even looking at SOMEONE can make me breathless (oh, not in a romantic way, in case you would get misunderstand my words)
Many tears fall and many troubles were caused.
But I never regret for what I've done. I don't and never will
I don't dream lately.
I even don't have time to miss my beloved Japan.
But somehow, when I see people who depress me, who put so many pressure on me
I think of Japan, where people are so kind and I feel nostalgic but ease myself for a while.
A part of me still pulls me back to the past, when I can actually feel that I can be me, no one else but the person that can live with her own mind, do what she wanna do and don't need to lie to anyone.
I just hate the fact that, I'm, now ,forced to become the kind of person that I once hated the most.
I guess so.
I'm not sure if it's wrong or right. But sometimes it does mean like that.
I remember the day before my birthday, I was hanging around all alone at Fukuoka.
I had a dream about me, at my house, having dinner with my family.
I guessed I miss my family so much. But I don't think I miss anybody else or some special place except my house.
When I get back, I know that I have to be busy with my school things, or something would irritated me for sure.
I guessed right. Haha
Now I'm in my table, learning like a crazy student but when you know you can't decide your grade even how hard you try, studying is such a torture.
I'm in a situation that is much terrible than I thought now.
That even looking at SOMEONE can make me breathless (oh, not in a romantic way, in case you would get misunderstand my words)
Many tears fall and many troubles were caused.
But I never regret for what I've done. I don't and never will
I don't dream lately.
I even don't have time to miss my beloved Japan.
But somehow, when I see people who depress me, who put so many pressure on me
I think of Japan, where people are so kind and I feel nostalgic but ease myself for a while.
A part of me still pulls me back to the past, when I can actually feel that I can be me, no one else but the person that can live with her own mind, do what she wanna do and don't need to lie to anyone.
I just hate the fact that, I'm, now ,forced to become the kind of person that I once hated the most.