these days my boyfriend often tells me to marry with him


im happy to hear that because i really wana keep being with him from now on


however


i have one thing i can't allow


that's why today i confessed about the problem


i said if he wouldnt think the problem well and try to solve it, i couldn't marry with him


then, i think he was depressed at the time though, soon he went to bed n started to sleep without saying anything about it


i don't regret what i did tonight at all


because im sure we will divorce at the end if we dont discuss any problem between us each other before our marriage


tomorrow is our first anniversary


i wonder what kind of decision he will make

no matter what he says, i will take..





had a lovely dinner
with my best friend who i haven't seen for a long time

we just talked and talked!!!!

like a gun!!!!



i can't believe she will be a mom!!!!!


ah~~~
im missing the days we went out together so often

she'll move to her hometown next month

may they have a sweet days together!!!!













最近
ようやく
情緒が安定してきました


意味もなく突然泣いたり
彼にも突然別れを切り出したり



本当にここ数週間
精神的に不安定でおかしかった
そのせいで
周囲のみなさんに
たくさんの迷惑をおかけしました


何であんなに不安定になったかは不明
一番可能性としてあるのは
環境の変化だけど


落ち着いてよかった