i just want to know what's going on around me........ what's up in this cold air????? i personally speaking am fine.... actually doing pretty well that a couple of month ago! so, as far as i'm concern i'm doing well. but my friends.... what's really going on? why all of the sudden things had to be like this??? out of blue the hell broke loose?! i thought my girlfriends are all doing well and happy, but that didn't last long did they?! i'm glad that i could be there for my friends right now since they have always been there for me when i was at my low... but still.... i want to see my friends all happy! i know things could happen in the blink of my eye... that's why everythings's so precious and beautiful!!! i know... but it was just a couple of days ago that all of us got together and had an awesome time together... they are all so happy with my haapy news that night! after all the bs happened this summer, i finally could get up and stand on my feet steadily!!! they're very happy for me and i had such a wonderful evening with them.... then, this..... i'm very sad and feel terriable for my friends and for me, i'm scared.... i know things happened in reasons/purposes... i know.... i learned a lot especially from those tough situations that i had to go through in the pase... i learned and could grow up with many many love and kind support from my family and friends.... learning is good, but still i wish things to be happy for all of my friends.... it's just so sad to see my friends sad.... i really do hope everything'll work out to be all happy and beautiful soon!!!