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Haha who in the world is looking at this blog?

I'm serious! It's all in english so I can't imagine that many ameblo users are interested...Honestly I would post in japanese if it wasn't so time consuming. I don't know why this blog keeps getting hits.

I suppose I'll have to reiterate it, but I post here because I legitimately prefer this as a blogging platform to most of the english-language blog hosts. I was considering moving to fc2, but I feel too lazy to do that now.╰(　´◔　ω　◔ `)╯

I guess if someone actually enjoys reading this I can't fault them for that. You sure are a strange person though.

who even curr

Honestly I've been too depressed to even function properly lately. 

Alsoooo. I really can't stand it when people complain about having ~no friends~ but they're constantly talking to their friends and have a whole bunch of people that they constantly talk to!

Fuck you people! You have no idea what it's like to actually be alone!


It drives you to shit like this. 

...

I dunno, I'm just not feeling very happy right now. Pretty uninterested in everything. 

eh.

There are a lot of things I'd like to say, but I can't even get myself to say them here. Even though this is just about as secluded as a blog could get. 

I guess there are some things that we just can't acknowledge, even when we're totally alone. 

hmm

Jolie was finally put down. The whole process of simply getting the vet to understand how sick she was, was really stressful for A, and subsequently, stressful for me, though of course my experience isn't nearly as bad as hers. I think she's relieved now, and I'm glad Jolie has finally gotten the rest that she needed. She was a good cat.

I wish spring break had been longer. I didn't really do anything, but that can't really be helped. I spent a lot of time trying to study for German class. I never really wanted to take it, and unsurprisingly I'm not picking up the language very well. It's frustrating to have to dedicate so much time to a language I don't care that much about. Das ist mir völlig wurscht.( ￣っ￣)

Aber, jetzt Ich kann Deutsche ein wenig. Es ist schwierig Sätze machen.

I feel like a failure tbh. The german work is so hard, I feel like an idiot for not being able to keep up. I really can't read any of the directions for our assignments. It takes hours and hours to get through homework because I have to translate everything word by word. The worst part of it is that I never really wanted to take German at all...at least if it was something I cared about I wouldn't feel so angry about it. 

I think I'm not the only one who is having a very hard time with the work. The book we use isn't very helpful and our professor is kind of taking a back seat to all this. He's a nice guy and pretty funny, but it seems like he's afraid to deviate from the book for fear of losing his job. I can't really blame him for that, but it still sucks. 

The school I attend already removed all upper level german classes, so now there's only german 1 and 2, meaning we'd never have a chance of becoming partially fluent in German no matter what . They did the same to all of the other language classes, besides spanish and french. but of course they found the money to fund new football stadiums and perks for their sports teams.

I'm glad I'm graduating soon.

yeah

I'm on spring break, not a whole lot to say really. It hasn't been great so far, but maybe it will get better.