self-confident

When I do something,

I'm always afraid of making mistakes.

I don't have self-confidence.

Whatever I am doing,

I tend to think lke this.

"I can't do anything."

"I'm not good at ..."

"Even if I try many times or make lots of effrots,

my dream won't come true".

I think of a negative thought.

In my experience,

nothing has succeeded.

I wonder if my dreams - what I want to be ,

or what I want to do ^ will come true.

But, this time, keep saying to myself,

It will get better!

Everything comes good!

Everything will be OK!

Valentine's Day

Five or six years ago,

I had a crush on a man.

It was just a one-side love.

He was so kind, smart, passionate

and loved by everyone.

When I asked him for help,

he did it without giving me an unpleased look.

He could play some sports very well

and his athletic ability was very very high.

He gave me a birthday present.

He bought me what I wanted to eat ( bread, cakes etc.)

He helped me a lot.

At the end of March,

the time came for me to leave my workplace.

One day, I met him and said

"I'll miss you ..."

Then, for the first time, he noticed that I had a crush on him.

He said,

"No, I don't think so."

"OK. Take good care of yourself"

I said to him and he went away.

Even now,

I can't forget him.

He was my ideal person.

so, I can't help looking for someone like him.

I'm looking for Mr. right

and maybe, Mr right is approaching my place.

About myself

Let me tell you about my personality.

some people say that I'm strong, determined, independent etc.

Maybe this is because

I do things only by myself

and I never ask someone for help.

I' m always trying to bury my feelings.

- what I'm really thinking, feeling, worrying...

I don't anyone to read my mind.

I'm not strong,

I just don't want to be hurt any more.

I'm just scared about having relationship with other people.

Now I think my heart is so tightly closed.

But gradually, little by little,

my frozen heart will melt

by expressing my feelings :)

Cebuano Language

I'm learning some Cebuano words now.

Before enrolling on-line English school

I didn't know about Philippines at all.

I thought only tagalog is spoken in Philippines.

I didn't know English is taught in elementary school

and Filipino people study math, history etc, in English.

I learned that they speak tagalog (a national language), Cebuano (bisaya)

and English.

Then I got interested in learning Cebuano.

Cebuano words sound very, very, very cute♡

I want to speak Cebuano fluently some day.

What is LOVE?

In my on line class,

today's topic was "what is love?"

It was a demo class for the new teacher,

and I saw him for the first time.

We talked about "love".

What is the definition of "love" ?

Why can "love" can change person?

Why is "love" complicated?

It's hard to explain even in Japanese,

because I don't know what love really is.

Have many people found

"what is love"?