Love the last to find that everything is just my wishful thinking
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Many times , I want to forget you , but found you in my heart too occupies an important position , many times , I want to say to you , love you, I'm really tired, but I know you do not care . Many times, I want to give love you, but can not let go of your emotions.
Fall in love with one you do not love me , I'm too happy , sad, lost too , even despair over . Because you can not afford to look that beautiful smile.
Because your indifference , because you do not care, because you do not love , I have repeatedly told myself , be sure to give up love you, give up that I love , but do not love my woman. But every time, boarded QQ, watching you that lit image , I would not consciously send this type of message " Hello ", " What are you doing ", " you have recently been? " And then quietly of waiting for your response, but again and again until you lit images that turned gray image, did not wait for your response , so wait, I have become accustomed to .
This love I have for you is to start from the network , but also in the network met you , I know you QQ number of persons in full, I do not know where in your QQ number which corner , maybe you do not know me , but I know you, I know your name, and you people are as beautiful , although I do not know why you put your name as a screen name , but I thank you, let me know your real name, plus you QQ from the day I read your information , I know, it must be true , I believe that the real you --- Zhang Shuli .
I put you in my own decisions QQ, the most conspicuous place, and specially for you set up a classification, put you in " my favorite people ," the group inside , and that there are only two people, one is you and the other is me.
I figured , from plus you QQ the beginning to the present day , we realize there is a whole 1111 days , that is, more than three years , I still clearly remember the first year , when you know , once unintentionally room , you take the initiative to chat with me , and see your QQ news, I was surprised , and even a little overwhelmed , and hurried to open the dialog box , see if you send me a message back , "Who are you ? recognize I do not ? I deleted people now , if you do not know , I'll cut you . " watching over the content of the message you're sending , initially there is a valley fallen off a cliff by the feeling will slowly calm down , I felt his mouth smile , and finally , you know what I exist. I immediately replied , "I know you, you are Zhang Shuli " , and then continue to send QQ message to you, " My name is *** , want to be your friend , can you ? " Just to wait for this message Reply I look at you that lit QQ images, such as in the cafe one afternoon , did not wait for reply. I want to continue to ask you, but also disturb you, I'm afraid where I say well , you readily pulled me into the blacklist , and now I do not expect to be able to get your love, willing able to accompany silent you, silently in love with you .
You know , when the second year , and once at night , just on the line to see that you have online , so I feel good surprise, because you never are online during the day , the evening did not see you on the line too . At first thought that his miss you too , so wrong, I rubbed his eyes , OK, I did not mistaken , I once again give you the courage Soy sent from QQ message:
" Hello , what are you doing here ? "
You will soon reply to the " singing "
Me: " I really want to hear your voice ."
You : " Hee hee, I sing not sound oh "
Me: "Never mind, I'd love to hear your voice ."
You : "Well, I opened the video to sing a song for you to listen to it ," see this message , I can not help but sighed to himself , "God , all this is true?" I'm really happy to the extreme, it all feels like a dream . So you answer me , so I have a little chat with me can not believe you people are . I can not wait agreed, and sent you a video window in the past , set up a video chat window after seeing the other end of the screen , you really are , so real , this is our first time to open the video , and also my first time see so real you , but unfortunately there is no video camera my side of the head , you can not see me, but I can see that you had been very satisfied , and I think they , in front of you at the moment , more than a photo of you have beautiful eyelashes. I hastily put on the headset , and finally hear you speak , your voice is gentle, good to hear what I could not find words to describe it , I only know , I heard your voice in the moment, my heart beat faster , excited to almost strangled , you ask what I want to hear songs , and I say that no matter what you sing songs I like, and then I heard a headset I heard the melody , I know it is a prelude to the song , slowly listening to the sound of the accompaniment , and finally , I heard your song , this song is the road "catch loach " child often listen to now have not heard more than a decade , and today listening to you sing , do not have doubled flavor , it felt like the original , like how I want time to be able to stay in this moment , what a happy moment , and soon after listening to this song , you tell me, you want to sleep , they turned off the video and then look at your image into a gray QQ , and so fast , so I have not woke up to God . I sat in front of the computer , facing the screen , watching you image the gray QQ , pondering you just as I sing songs that road , it was for me singing .
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y now, you know three years , and this year, QQ messages sent to you every time , or else can not wait for replies , or is this reply : "Who are you " , even though I have repeatedly told you my name, there will always be like this result, I know that in your heart anywhere without me , in your heart , maybe I'm just your QQ number inside a humble stranger fills , but you occupy my whole heart . Network allows us to meet, let me love you , but let me not destined you to my care. Was naive to think that regardless of time and space, the distance, just really love a person , they will be together , but now I find it all just their own wishful thinking . I do not know why you would be so infatuated , so fascinating. Past three years, I had you as my girlfriend , so, I have loved you for three years , three years, love you and want you for three years. Shu Li Baby, I'm really tired, tired tired ! Too tired to have no strength to continue to love you.