haha I just can't hold the urge to fangirling right now.
and I can't write it in Japanese... 汗
so I made this english version. very different from last post though べーっだ!

aah, it's already 2 a.m. in the morning. I must sleep but I want to write...
so let's get started!

few days ago my father confused with the suspicious credit card bill...
so many iTunes bill for the same thing. it almost reach 3million rupiah... wth
what was that? who did that?
YES THAT WAS MEEEEEE SORRRYYY DADDDDD
I can't hold my self to stop buying... er... LoveGem for LoveLive! School Idol Festival mobile rhythm game... hahaha... ガーン
I want Eli card sooo... I buy LoveGem/LoveCa so I can scout for many times. but you know, it's just a game. didn't get Eli card doesn't mean end of the world (for me). I should spent it for another things *like what?*

soo, um.. my days as freelancer or should I say, jobless woman already started. and with holiday seasons like this, I'm too lazy to make doujin. so I spent my days for watching dorama. yes. dorama. usually I watch western series or movies. but because now I am learning Japanese, I think I should watch or hear something "Japanese". I'm not into dorama at first. but I do have favorite actors such as Nino, Teppei, Mukai and Narimiya. now my job only watch their doramas にひひ
and first of all, because I'm jobless, I like to accompany my aunt watching k-drama. the drama I saw is "Will It Snow For Christmas" starring Go Soo. dayum. oh my. Go Soo is friggggggggggiin hot here I don't know he's that hot! hahaha
so after watching that k-drama, I started to find j-dorama as well. now I've dorama that absolutely mostly starring my favourite actors haha.

the difference between watching western and asian (Japan for exact) series or movies are... for me, the main point is on the actor's sex appeal. if the western mostly have kinda sexy, hot and dashing appearance, while the Japanese also have it all, but plus one point, CUTENESS. yes yes yes!
everytime I watch J-Dorama it always gave me CUTENESS OVERLOAD. かわいいすぎる!ドキドキ
you know, Chan, Jakey, Ryan, Cevans and another western actors are super sexy manly hunky. they're just pretty fit. but when it comes to japanese Idol, my God they're just like dolls! they looks so young even they're 10 years older than me... while western actors looks so mature and old. what kind of magic that japanese people have to make them forever young like that... べーっだ!

I know not all actors are cute. and the meaning of "cute" here is not something 'girly' or 'pretty'... it's more like, um, adorable? haha. doesn't mean the actors act like girl or doing not manly things or wearing cute clothes... I hate that.
there're japanese actors who have manly and sexy looks too (but I can't think western actors that have cute looks haha sorry) and I think these type -manly looks- are pretty fit with yakuza-themed dorama even the one with cute look still fit with yakuza. imho, all japanese actors are so fit with yakuza or yankee-themed ahahaha
I like when they're yelling and shouting like: "omaaaeeee!", "kisamaa!", "shine yaroooo!", "oryaaaa!", "nanda koreeeeee!"
love it. so much fun! so badass! にひひ

I just wanna know their magic to keep looks so young... I just don't get it. how?
when you started to know an actor and think "aww, so cute! how old is he? must be still 20s" and when you realized all of them are over 30s... I don't even... 叫び
imho, the japanese are made to looks forever young, the western are made to looks classy and more mature haha. but both are fine~
good looking men are delightful~

I think I should sleep now. fangirling before sleep, I hope I'll have sweet dream like few days ago. I dreamt about performing, singing and dancing together with Arashi on stage. we all wearing white suit and the stage like in a TV studio. haha. I was stand up between Nino and Ridaa if I'm not mistaken. and from the opposite, Jun are laughing at me because I was in wrong position. we are performing song GUTS! or A•RA•SHI... I didn't remember much haha
maybe because I was watching 65th Kouhaku Uta Gassen.

dreaming about your favourite idol is never disappoinitng hahahaha

じゃ、また!