New Teaching Load
3rd grade (tentative as of today) ::
1. Classic Autism
2. Autism
3. Dyslexia + ADHD
4. LD (Learning Disability)
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To be honest, I lack confidence.
I'm scared of taking BIG responsibilities especially with tasks I feel I lack mastery.
I did not took SPED back in college so I really feel inadequate.
I know that there are still lots of things I need to learn.
Somthing I won't earn from school but from the experiences I'm going to reap from now on.
"We won't give you these loads if we think you're not cut for it",
that was what my Boss told me awhile ago.
She explained further together with my other Senior that they decided
to give me these loads so as not to put to waste my skills
which I won't be using much if placed with the higher level.
They are already independent and they won't be needing much assistance from me.
Unlike the lower levels whose academic and behavior issues needs to be assisted 100%.
I felt appeased somehow but I still can't get to fool myself that I can handle this.
I've been telling myself for the umpteenth time that I must think positive.
That I can do this.
But . . .
I still feel troubled.
*currently teary eyed and my heart doesn't stop from throbbing fast*
I just hope I can handle all the PRESSURE !
P.S.
Now I am more in need of a DSM-IV TR (hard copy) ! ! ! !