I don't know.
A wave of frustration suddenly hit me hard early this morning.
I'm suddenly disappointed with myself.
I know I can do "this" if I would work hard on it. . .
if I'd be serious enough. . .
if I take this as a matter of life and death ! ! ! !
But I'm too laid back and that's my problem.
My problem is MYSELF.
ヽ( )｀ε´( )ノ