I’m sulking because mom didn’t even bother to stop and give me advice.
I’m irritated because they always push me to do something though not forcefully but still verbally striking.
I feel confuse for once I make a step to accomplish what they want me to do they left me hanging in thin air.
I feel inept for even if how much I try to prove my worth it is still insignificant to them.
I’m jealous because even if I have accomplished a number of things 75% greater to what my siblings can give, I still seem nothing compared to them.
I’m trapped between the perception they have of me and the person I want to be.
I’m torn between my practical viewpoint and passion.
I think it is time for me to act base on my impulses. Dangerous yet have proven to be handy a number of times.
I wonder why whenever I act without giving it a lot of thought it turns out positively in the end.
But, could it be my impulse? Or was it my instincts talking to me?
P.S.
There is no need to understand my post.
I have this head full of random thoughts which I simply want to pour here.
I don’t want my brain cells to stink because of all these waves OF murky water circulating in and out of my head.