How to decide my death. | Real people in my day

How to decide my death.

Acting naturally is useless.
When he decides his death, man is useless.

I today
It dies and it hurries up.

It dies suddenly and it hurries up.

Is rheumatism a cause so?
It becomes impossible it is possible to do.
It becomes a miserable appearance.

Unpleasantness ・・・
It is not so.

I want to die beautifully.
I want to die beautifully.

A miserable appearance is unpleasant in its last moment.

[Shunji] decided my death by oneself.
Whether morphine of the pain is too stricken or not?

And, when breath began to become painful
Whether morphine is stricken and the artificial respirator is put up or not?

[Shunji] was refused to the last minute.
When dying without understanding anything is painful.

And, when you worry about my thing
The child and the ex-wife of [shunji] refused me.

Therefore, when [shunji] was able to speak and to do, it was not possible to introduce it.

[Shunji] [noo] [**] accepted me and taught the situation of [shunji] in detail.

[Shunji] to struggle because of breathing difficulties and pain in the remainder

The family had them determine it to [shunji].

[Shunji] to struggle
It is morphine in worry [dahazu] [yo] haustorium ・・・.

Why did you worry?

In it, I am wandering [i] as for life and death.
I who struggled because of the necrosis of the foot was told and the doctor told parents both amputation of a legs.

However, the life of 2-3 already.
If so, for sending beautifully.

Only when you wait for the death when morphine is stricken and the artificial respirator is applied.

[Shunji] heard the story from father.

Therefore, it seems to have worried for several days.
Is morphine stricken and is the respiratory organ applied?

Inside where consideration becomes turbid by pain and breathing difficulties
It seems to have urged ..doing very.. decision on ..family.. [shunji].

..putting.. [**] : while crying.
It has called though it doesn't know how to do.

It is not though it answers.

However, I wanted you to die easily.
Because it severely had painful time by treatment.

[Shunji] is clumsy and weak.
My death is determined to the [shunji] ・・・.

[Shunji] that became a man at the end
The decision to put up morphine and the artificial respirator for myself was done.

It dies two days after [son].

The face seen at the end is [shunji] of the face of ..putting down.. Japanese syllabary in the hospital as for the respiratory organ.

It is the end.

I want also to die beautifully.
I want to decide its death by myself.

I want to die with my intention.
I want to prepare it neatly.

[Shunji] was neatly prepared.

When you scare the death.
However, my death was decided for myself.

[Shunji]
If I do not live until what time, I am useless.

Is there how to decide die of I?

It is betrayed and the phlegm of [shunji] me.
Because you are looking from the heaven, . ..understanding...

I get acquainted.
It has returned to me helpless.

When is with you though it was the lowest.

Is it useless when dying and hurrying up?