i just watched a good movie.. "Eat pray love"..
should i say I feel like im the girl in the movie...
i like the part, the last part "love"
wherein people are telling her that "losing yourself at the beginning is normal" something like that..
well ive always been the scared one.. im scared of losing myself.. i have ruined relationships because im afraid of people leaving me, im afraid losing my ego boundaries... what happens is i always projected it with my partner..
heartbreaking as it may sound. really. but that object cathexis part is my least favorite...and for years i havent gotten through with that... i just feel awful in the end of every relationship cause i wasnt able to fight those fears..
however after so much heartbreaks i realized that i have to trust and put more faith on myself.. i need to control my emotions as well as my thoughts... im really tired being on the cycle... i want change... i want a new beginning
this time... i'll just lose myself if thats part of the process... i;ll just love.. i dont want to ask anymore... i just want to be happy.. i just want to love... conquer my fears.. love hard.
should i say I feel like im the girl in the movie...
i like the part, the last part "love"
wherein people are telling her that "losing yourself at the beginning is normal" something like that..
well ive always been the scared one.. im scared of losing myself.. i have ruined relationships because im afraid of people leaving me, im afraid losing my ego boundaries... what happens is i always projected it with my partner..
heartbreaking as it may sound. really. but that object cathexis part is my least favorite...and for years i havent gotten through with that... i just feel awful in the end of every relationship cause i wasnt able to fight those fears..however after so much heartbreaks i realized that i have to trust and put more faith on myself.. i need to control my emotions as well as my thoughts... im really tired being on the cycle... i want change... i want a new beginning
this time... i'll just lose myself if thats part of the process... i;ll just love.. i dont want to ask anymore... i just want to be happy.. i just want to love... conquer my fears.. love hard.