sometimes it amazes me how people pray even for those little things...
before i laughed at them.. but now it just makes me smile...
confession:
im an agnostic.. ive been like these for a number of years already..
iam realistic, i always seek proof, I need clear answers, im logical, i ask too much, i weigh everything...
for me its all bout ACTIONS.. that nothing can help you but yourself..
but recently life has been hitting me with storms...
one day i found myself crying and praying...
Who am i to judge? who are we to judge?
though i always know why people pray and why people believe in God
i never believed on anything... not God, not love...
but im done.. my life has been so empty..
i dont want to ask anymore, i dont want to be too logical on everything...
i just want to believe...
maybe this is the way for me to believe...
for maybe God knows what is the greatest problem that would make me pray
i thank Lord for the challenges... now i stopped being judgmental.. i became understanding and less cynical.. :)
though im still having pain,, im still lonely... i'll continue praying :)
hopefully i will find my way to him..
and believe completely..
im on my way there