I know well..
I know how much complain I can give in a day~~
I know how pessimistic I can be... i know well..
recently, I become so busy....
I have two researches to finish (im the leader in both of the researches)
I have psychological tests to administer to 4 different clients,, I have journals to finish, I have a heavy and thick books to read... and the list goes on.....
but u know what~ I am happy!
I'm doing well in school (at least for the 3/4 of my subjects haha) and I still want to do better next time.. Im still determined to get another scholarship for next sem...
.. another thing, I feel loved by people.. I get to go out with my friends all the time, despite of our busy shcedules we do go out most of the time 
... I am so much thankful to have real friends like them... 
, this time,, this time... one of the rare moments... I am satisfied.. I am happy~~ it is indeed true that life has so much to offer... pain and tears are part of life,, suffering is part of life... but still happiness is a choice..
still attitude plays a big role in determining happiness...I learned that I will never be happy if i dwell on the past and if I keep an anger inside.. I will never move on and will never be happy as long as i have hatred in my heart... as long as I am negative... happiness will nver come~ however, at this moment, I do feel happy~~