prayers

may kendra pass her final interview in IBM.. she wants this.. lord please let her be hired..

and to my former superior.. i guess i'll refer him as well.. he needs this job too.

amen.

work

feels like transferring to another job....
but is uncertain because task might change but the job itself will still be repetitive むかっ

what i want?
more money.
more desirable job.

i really really want to take up my masters degree now.. :))



....


is everyday a realization that I made a mistake??.. :(

irritated


There are times wherein i still cant help but get angry..
well im still a human after all.. i still do get annoyed and irritated...

sometimes i still cant help but curse and swear...
like this day.. my father annoyed me so much..
i really got irritated...

Lord.. just take him, can you?
:)) sorry to say that but at the age of 54 he still doesnt know what MATURITY
and RESPONSIBILITY MEAN...

he acted/acts like a child... whining. swearing.. cursing us..
what an asshole...

seriously.... i reached my saturation point...


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on the other hand, i got so emotional yesterday.. and i think thats why
my mood this morning wasnt so good...

i almost cried when i sung "the only exception" at my aunt;s house..



hard to believe

I find it hard to believe
That all the pain that we are feeling
Has some meaning in this world It's so hard to believe
That everything you see is different
From the things that you've been told I wanted life to be this way
Just a little bit of love could mean so much
O please don't take it all away
But with you heaven is still close enough to touch I find it hard to believe
That someone up there is waiting With arms open wide and smiling
It's so hard to believe
When someone told me that your suffering is what you get for living I wanted life to be this way
Just a little bit of love could mean so much
O please don't take it all away
But with you heaven is still close enough to touch
Because your love is still the only thing
That matters in this world The only thing I can believe...

merry christmas

merry Christmas everyone! :)

i want to thank the lord for the blessings he has been giving me the past months
for the strength and optimism ive been needing ever since..
for my friends who make me happy
for my inspirations,, theyre a lot haha
for being accepted in my dream company
for my dad who stays awake till 12am just to pick up me in the office <3!
for my mom who is so happy seeing me maturing :))

for everything :D
for the air i breathe
for the 7-8 hrs of sleep everday
for the food i eat and i pack as my lunch in the office
for the inspiring songs
for everyone who's been inspiring me in a good way
for coming home safe all the time
for the new people i get to know
for the wonderful benefits of IBM
for being hired as a regular employee at IBM :))
for the hot chocolate, cause its always available in the vending machine :)))
for being assigned in the mid shift so i dont have to wake up early
for being in the HR dept.
for having 2 cool bosses
for my big heart :D
for my past proffers
for my university
for my ex-enemies :))

THANK YOU LORD!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
thank you for helping me to get through with my problems

thank you lord. thank you universe!!!

merry christmas everyone :)

lets stay grateful all the time :D
we are fortunate :D


you


you were the one I chose because my heart says so.
I can give up others, my desires, every infatuation
because of you.
because you're the guy I chose. you're the guy I want to spend
the rest of my life with. you're the guy who i would want to spend
happy and sad moments with... because you will be my forever,
the guy who I would fight for. the guy who I will love that i wont be
feeling afraid anymore.. the guy who i would commit with. :)