The Following Day
Minna Gome ne for not posting earlier.... When my friends left I drunk my meds and ending up sleeping again (_ _。)
Ok... I'll tell you what happen (as if someone is reading this hahahaha （‐＾▽＾‐）)
When I woke up I smell something good at the kitchen.. They were cooking... I was shocked coz I left them sleeping cozily at the living room.. and now they are cooking at my kitchen... my cat and my dog already had their breakfast... My fridge is now filled with foods and drinks... I was surprised as I scan my fridge then Bevz told me "Here are the list and how much you owe us... Well it's not that we have to do all these things and haven't got any payment" she said... hahahha... that's our CPA talking...It seems that they went to the market early in the morning.. "We were hungry and we needed to eat, when we searched for food in your fridge it only has water... so we buy something for us and for you.. I think that will be enough for the week though" Nini added... I was so touched by them going into a lot of trouble... huwaaaaaaaa... I love you guys so much...o(〃＾▽＾〃)o
"Oh yeah I almost forgot... here your bro gave this to me and told me to give it to you" Madel said as she handed me a new phone... "He said that you needed it in time of emergency... well you're not a cellphone user and you use your landline instead... so why he is giving you one??" She added and making me panic again......... waaaaaaaaaaaaa........ This kind of question always pinned me down... what should I tell them!!!
"Ah when I go out my bro can't reach me coz my old cellphone is already broken so I don't have the time to fix it" yatta..... I answered back... "Ah I see well it's obvious that you don't have the time coz you don't have the time to buy your own foods too" Bevs said as she gets the list from me... "Well you owe this all to Jazel she paid for all of it" she said as she hands me back the list... but before I was about to hand Jazel the payment she refused it and said that's her farewell gift to me......Huwaaaaaaaaaaaa... Jazel you're so kind...... I will miss you best friend 。・ﾟﾟ･(≧д≦)･ﾟﾟ･｡
We chatted so much and we reminise so much about our childhood mischief and they said I am the leader of all mischief back then.. hahaha.. sou ka na?! f^_^;
Then the topic which I don't want to talk about has been touched........ waaaaaaaaaa.... I should have known better...... Yeah all of them have their special someone... they already have their BF except me.. "Ayame, why is that you still don't have a BF you were single for 2 years already you need to have one specially this time and year.. not to mention you're living alone" Nini asked me with her nose on the subject..."it's not that I'm not ready, it's just he's not here yet.. I mean I haven't met the right one for me.. you know the feeling once you found him you know it's him" I replied which was truly in my mind at that time... "Yeah your right that was just what I have felt when I saw Jet" Bevs said shifting the topic.. Yukatta...(＞＜;)
It was a wonderful day with my friends that I forgotten about my illness... We chatted and chatted that we forgot about the time... when they went back home... I felt the loneliness again sinking in my heart.. It's like I'm happy but something is missing... There's still a void in my heart.. that I have to know... I hope I can find it out on time (￣_￣ i)
Ok... I'll tell you what happen (as if someone is reading this hahahaha （‐＾▽＾‐）)
When I woke up I smell something good at the kitchen.. They were cooking... I was shocked coz I left them sleeping cozily at the living room.. and now they are cooking at my kitchen... my cat and my dog already had their breakfast... My fridge is now filled with foods and drinks... I was surprised as I scan my fridge then Bevz told me "Here are the list and how much you owe us... Well it's not that we have to do all these things and haven't got any payment" she said... hahahha... that's our CPA talking...It seems that they went to the market early in the morning.. "We were hungry and we needed to eat, when we searched for food in your fridge it only has water... so we buy something for us and for you.. I think that will be enough for the week though" Nini added... I was so touched by them going into a lot of trouble... huwaaaaaaaa... I love you guys so much...o(〃＾▽＾〃)o
"Oh yeah I almost forgot... here your bro gave this to me and told me to give it to you" Madel said as she handed me a new phone... "He said that you needed it in time of emergency... well you're not a cellphone user and you use your landline instead... so why he is giving you one??" She added and making me panic again......... waaaaaaaaaaaaa........ This kind of question always pinned me down... what should I tell them!!!
"Ah when I go out my bro can't reach me coz my old cellphone is already broken so I don't have the time to fix it" yatta..... I answered back... "Ah I see well it's obvious that you don't have the time coz you don't have the time to buy your own foods too" Bevs said as she gets the list from me... "Well you owe this all to Jazel she paid for all of it" she said as she hands me back the list... but before I was about to hand Jazel the payment she refused it and said that's her farewell gift to me......Huwaaaaaaaaaaaa... Jazel you're so kind...... I will miss you best friend 。・ﾟﾟ･(≧д≦)･ﾟﾟ･｡
We chatted so much and we reminise so much about our childhood mischief and they said I am the leader of all mischief back then.. hahaha.. sou ka na?! f^_^;
Then the topic which I don't want to talk about has been touched........ waaaaaaaaaa.... I should have known better...... Yeah all of them have their special someone... they already have their BF except me.. "Ayame, why is that you still don't have a BF you were single for 2 years already you need to have one specially this time and year.. not to mention you're living alone" Nini asked me with her nose on the subject..."it's not that I'm not ready, it's just he's not here yet.. I mean I haven't met the right one for me.. you know the feeling once you found him you know it's him" I replied which was truly in my mind at that time... "Yeah your right that was just what I have felt when I saw Jet" Bevs said shifting the topic.. Yukatta...(＞＜;)
It was a wonderful day with my friends that I forgotten about my illness... We chatted and chatted that we forgot about the time... when they went back home... I felt the loneliness again sinking in my heart.. It's like I'm happy but something is missing... There's still a void in my heart.. that I have to know... I hope I can find it out on time (￣_￣ i)
OMG I'm Sooooo Sorry (ＴoＴ;)
I don't know the time difference between this site and here.. demo this night my friends came into my apartment... At first I was shocked because I was thinking that they found out that I was confined last Saturday.... My friend Bevs noticed my startled face... and ask am I seeing a ghost??...（-""-；)
I was like "No No, please come inside... by the way why are you here??"... After I asked that question they became silent... Bevs, Nini, Jazel, and Madel... Then a hard hit on my head....... Yeah it hurts so much..... "BAKA!!! You forgot!!" Jazel hits me with all her might!!! I was massaging my aching head when I remembered something.............. OMG....... Gome.... gome... *kneeling and bowing several times*...
It was Jazel's Von voyage party..... we call it here "despedida".. How can I forget???.......(ﾉ_-｡)
We talked about this a week before... I completely forgotten about it... We agreed to do it at my place and they will bring food with drinks and apparently they did... they brought pizza, chips and beers.... Oh no.... I can't let them find out that I was confined.... mmm... maybe I'll drink just a little so they won't notice...
So as we chat and hang out I was just drinking one bottle of beer... taking it little by little.... so they won't notice........ but I was wrong............(ノ◇≦。)
They were my friends since middle school so they will notice it immediately right??!!! "Ei Chotto.. that 's the same beer you have been drinking since we had our first..." Madel said as she take a look at the bottle which was not cold already..."A..re... Ayame... you're not the Ayame we used to hang out.... you're a heavy drinker!!!!" Bevs added making me panic... Well yes... since highschool I was a heavy drinker and no one in the boys can keep up with me... maybe it's in my genes... hahahaha... but I'm not that alcoholic I only drink when there's an occasion or something... but not everyday...They are all waiting for my answer and constantly staring at me...... waaaaaaaa... what now Ayame THINK!!!!! (((( ;°Д°))))
"I have tonsillitis.. ahahaha" waaaaaaaa what a lame reason... (x_x；)
Then Jazel patted my back.. "It's ok if you can't drink that much... You didn't push us before so why should we besides where here to celebrate and not to get drunk easily".... waaaaaaaa I love my friends... they are so understanding... demo I still can't tell them the real reason... Gome.. Hontouni Gome... ｡ﾟ(T^T)ﾟ｡
Now we had finished the celebration and everyone were sleeping at my living room... and now I'm signing off... will tell the rest tomorrow... jaane (^-^)ノ~~
I was like "No No, please come inside... by the way why are you here??"... After I asked that question they became silent... Bevs, Nini, Jazel, and Madel... Then a hard hit on my head....... Yeah it hurts so much..... "BAKA!!! You forgot!!" Jazel hits me with all her might!!! I was massaging my aching head when I remembered something.............. OMG....... Gome.... gome... *kneeling and bowing several times*...
It was Jazel's Von voyage party..... we call it here "despedida".. How can I forget???.......(ﾉ_-｡)
We talked about this a week before... I completely forgotten about it... We agreed to do it at my place and they will bring food with drinks and apparently they did... they brought pizza, chips and beers.... Oh no.... I can't let them find out that I was confined.... mmm... maybe I'll drink just a little so they won't notice...
So as we chat and hang out I was just drinking one bottle of beer... taking it little by little.... so they won't notice........ but I was wrong............(ノ◇≦。)
They were my friends since middle school so they will notice it immediately right??!!! "Ei Chotto.. that 's the same beer you have been drinking since we had our first..." Madel said as she take a look at the bottle which was not cold already..."A..re... Ayame... you're not the Ayame we used to hang out.... you're a heavy drinker!!!!" Bevs added making me panic... Well yes... since highschool I was a heavy drinker and no one in the boys can keep up with me... maybe it's in my genes... hahahaha... but I'm not that alcoholic I only drink when there's an occasion or something... but not everyday...They are all waiting for my answer and constantly staring at me...... waaaaaaaa... what now Ayame THINK!!!!! (((( ;°Д°))))
"I have tonsillitis.. ahahaha" waaaaaaaa what a lame reason... (x_x；)
Then Jazel patted my back.. "It's ok if you can't drink that much... You didn't push us before so why should we besides where here to celebrate and not to get drunk easily".... waaaaaaaa I love my friends... they are so understanding... demo I still can't tell them the real reason... Gome.. Hontouni Gome... ｡ﾟ(T^T)ﾟ｡
Now we had finished the celebration and everyone were sleeping at my living room... and now I'm signing off... will tell the rest tomorrow... jaane (^-^)ノ~~
Just When I Was About To (O.O)
It's a good day for me...
Though I feel a little bit dizzy,
well at least I can walk around now...
and I feel a lot stronger... o(^▽^)o
I got back to my PC and starting to browse my profiles... I commented back to my friends and I had time to chat back at them... Yukatta.... I hope that this will go on smoothly...（‐＾▽＾‐）
I prepared some instant ramen for myself since I can't cook yet coz I haven't gone to the market... hehehehe
I sat down on my favorite couch and turned on the TV... then that news shocked me
"Teen kills 15 in Germany before taking own life"
I was frozen at my seat when I heard that news... I also found out that the gunman was just 17.. WTF??!!!
What is happening to these kids lately... I mean when I was 17 I have done a lot of mischief myself but I don't go and shooting people.... Then as I watched I found out that there was no evident reason for the shooting but the gunman's intellectual capacity is below average.... He just went back to his former school and started to shoot kids who were still holding their pencils.... God in heavens... why?? Doushite??
Why did he do it?? o(；△；)o
I don't know what to feel?? I feel sorry and angry at the same time.... And then I felt weak again not because of what I had it's because what I felt towards the news... What I was trying to say is that in that kind of horrible news, what is happening to the world lately?? Are we about to see ourselves fall apart? ｡ﾟ(T^T)ﾟ｡
I just hope that this will be the last....... (￣＾￣)
Another Hellish Day
I was already out from that white room but it feels like my room is like that... The same smell, the same aura.....I need to remodel my room...(_ _。)
My mom visited me after I have been released from that dreaded place... I know that she was holding back her tears... I feel so ashamed of myself by causing her so much pain.... But what should I do?? (ﾉ_-｡)
It's not that I like to be taken care of... My bro has been taking care of me on and after I was confined... He should be making plans with his marriage not taking care of me... （Ｔ＿Ｔ）
Gome ne Okan.... gome ne Aniki.... Shinpai kakette gome ne...・°・(ノД｀)・°・
My dad didn't come because according to my Mom he just don't have the heart to see me this way...
All that time I wanted to smile and say thanks to them demo I can only give them a faint smile... I feel so weak... I can't even do anything right now... I feel so ashamed... (＞_＜)
Now I'm alone again... I just hope by tomorrow I can finally do the things I like........ like walking outside with my dog... waaaaaa gome ne georgina for not taking you for a walk lately.... 。・ﾟﾟ･(≧д≦)･ﾟﾟ･｡
Hope that tomorrow will be a good day for me... (^-^)
Here I go again T.T
It's been a while, I haven't chat anyone from my online friends.... I didn't even see my friends here... I got locked up again in a white room... hearing those liquid that drips from the bottle that was hanging beside me... They said I was lacking something... so I ended up again here... At that time I really wanted to call someone from my friends but I just can't burden them of what I am right now... I tried to be online using my phone but it didn't do... I asked my bro to bring my laptop but I ended sleeping when it's time for us to chat.... Now I'm back again at my place... My pc crashed so I have to reformat it... （Ｔ.Ｔ）Just when I was eager to be online... I manage to fix it but I noticed that I get so easily feel sleepy... It's been 3 days that I was out from that white room but I'm getting more sleepy lately.... I just don't want it to be like that... I am wasting my precious time.... If I stop taking what I am taking now I can't fully recover demo I don't want to sleep all day.... maybe your thinking wtf is she talking about... hehehe.. gome ne... It's just I wanted to let it out but I don't know how except to write it here and I can't even go to details....。(´д｀lll)
I'm afraid that I'm getting weak day by day.... I just hope that this nightmare will end as soon as possible coz I want to do the things that I want ・°・(ノД｀)・°・
I'm afraid that I'm getting weak day by day.... I just hope that this nightmare will end as soon as possible coz I want to do the things that I want ・°・(ノД｀)・°・