What a boring day it is... Since my boyfriend got back to Japan, i haven't heard from him. I guess he hasn't got his cellphone yet. He doesn't have internet access at home in his hometown..ah we can't even do skype. Before he was gone, we were seeing each other every day and talking on the phone or at least texting in every hour...i seriously miss him..
my boyfriend's ex girlfriend is my ex bestfriend as well. It is not true that i stole him from her because they had already broken up when things happened between he and me, and what is more, she was cheating on him back then. Anyway she was really mad at me and crying when i told my feeling toward him and what had happened... i never thought that i would make her cry because of me in million years, but i did. im still not sure whether i betrayed her or not...No matter how i can well explain to her logically, it will never be easy for her to accept me.
After i came out, she and i talked but i couldn't speak a word to her. i couldn't blame her being devastated. she ended up that she will never be able to trust me and be friend like we were before.
Sometimes i dream about her. First we are kind of awkward, but are gradually talking to each other. Then i wake up to realize that's not gonna happen. Whenever i think of her, i can't get away from feeling somewhat guilty.