But okay, I'm just a beginner in Japanese so I can't know everything. XD
So, this is my second entry since I deleted my first.
Today is really not a day that I would write an entry. My mother's boyfriend made me really angry.
He promised to take us to London this month and then it came out yesterday that he was lying. I'm very angry now!
Generally I reached rock bottom because of this. I went around crying and shouting all day, with really bad mood swings but I don't want to talk about it. Right now I just want to be left alone.
At least I can listen to Dir en grey which keeps me from hurting myself.
I even came off MSN, I have no nerve to talk with people right now.
MSN was okay when I was talking with my two very good friends, Shizu and Risa, but when all the others came and I really didn't want to talk to them... I haven't been on MSN for a month and to tell the truth I didn't miss it at all. I can talk on the phone anytime with those that are important to me, or I can always send e-mails, but I really don't want to talk with the rest of them. Just those few.
So Risa suggested that I shall make a second MSN address and give it to only those people I really think are important and when I only want to talk to them I'll log in using that address. I shall think about it.
Right now this is how I feel:
And why do men think that just because I act nicely and treat everybody like a human means I'm free to take? Okay, so I'm single, and what of it? (-_-メ
It was one big mistake to agree on that date with Boyo last Wednesday. I don't feel any liking towards him, nothing. As a friend I guess he would be okay, but as a boyfriend not. And he added me on MSN - joy upon joys.
So he clicks on me and starts with bullshit like "if you're feeling down I'm here to listen."
Look here Boyo; I don't even know you as a person, just met you last Saturday, we had a date, you don't know anything about who I am, where I come from, what I'm like, nor do I know you that well, so why should I tell you out of all people what my problem is?!
Men can be so difficult. Or perhaps they are too easy to understand? I told him that I'm sorry but I'm not in the mood to chitchat right now.
People...Jesus...people are making my life damn difficult sometimes.
Aru over and out