Xmas feelings

Hi guys !
as always [?] I'm kinda sad .
yeah... one more time my university grades aren't good and I think I'm not going back to there in the next year .
I'm done .

Everyday when I get my way I pass in front of a kindergarten ...
it makes me remember about old , but good times ...
I had no worries , no problems , many friends (that I thought it would last forever , btw) , secret places , secret diaries , secret beloved ones , letters from my distant friends , I got calls when it were my birthday , I had birthday parties with a crowd [?] and now I don't even like parties .

I'm getting old and tired . It's a fact .

Actually I think the good moments I have are a lie .
My whole life is a lie . Illusions , only .

I need to be someone else or I'll explode .
Good , but untrue times ...



in times like these I need a break ...
so I use to walk or whatever in the middle of the night .
it's dangerous but I'm sick about caring
so here is a pic I took last night . Weird , WEIRD man riding a bike .




Awn , something that brings me nostalgic feelings (as kindergartens) , is the springtime .
It's almost ending ( beginning the STUPID summer , btw )



but here in Brasil even the seasons are completely FREAKS !

the flowers are ... FALLING !



I guess it means that I love autumn days [?]

Whatever , it's amazing . That cicle , I mean .


And only yesterday I noticed that X-mas is comming too fast .
I was walking back home and all the restaurants and shops were with little blinkers lights in the front .
I could not take pics of all of them .. cause I was tired .
But here is someones ...



and when I arrived at home my mom rise our xmas tree .
Actually i don't like those xmas traditions , and obligated good feelings and bla bla bla ...

But I won't care about it this year . maybe next time .





Merry Christmas , I love you ~ Kuroyume