thinkin bout what i wanna do actually
what i wanna know now is whats and whos on my mind , and yeah, what i am really,
sometimes i look into someone's heart, and realize i dont get any. i just dont know why.
i never know what people are REALLY thinkin, but somehow i feel so bleeding.
everybody feels the same? how could i survive?
but its kinda silly question. I know i actually dont really care about tha.
i narrowly missed what i want all the time,
tell me why, its like somedoby is always watchin me to let me address the challenge.
but you know what, i dont wanna be tested.
though its so hard nobody could understand, i can barely deal with the loss of my dearest Dad,
but still, there is sth i dont wanna go through.
its..... someone's heart. and it is one thing I cannot have in control.
hey dad, am i still bound by you? then, whats wrong with that?
is it not a good thing? tell me, tell me. you come down to tell me, dad.
Not again! two years ago, i felt the same way.
but nothing is left with me now. I feel no pain. what was it? I cant even remember it, feel it, know it.
Friends say "you go girl, its not that bad at all to face and be honest to your own real feeling."
i feel like " are you serious? you guys have lived like this? "
I was thinkin thinkin thinkin over and over again,
finally came up one
there is one i wanna protect whatever happens
doesnt matter if its right or wrong, real or fake, like or love.
but one thing you have to know is
who knows what could happen tomorrow
i dont at least.
You never know!!! haha