Our intelligent kills us.

As I wrote before, today's society has become more complicated than ever.

When I was dreamed of my job, I was so optimistic. I thought I could get any job if I want. There was a time when I admired and eager to be a pilot moving from place to place internationally. However, I've seen too much to be optimistic. What I hear from adults, which should be the example fro next generation, is just complaint! I've never met the guy who is proud of doing his job. Seems like such a guy lived in TV program. Their morale are just going down...


So is the birth rate in Japan. We tend to control our birth and have no more than two children.

What created this situation? It's this society.


Before we try to reproduce as much as possible, we know that our society doesn't accommodate non-educated people easily.

50 years ago, it was easy. We used to not care about the cost of fostering children. It was a time right after WW2 was announced to be finished.
It was unusual that children go to University because the number of the job which needs help was plentiful. People went to company, and was treated well and got jobs.


But now, There are too much people for one job. In addition, the companies expect us to be educated because it is required for the job.

As a result, more and more children goes to University even against their will.


That's why we jumped out of law of the nature.


we should be eager to have more and more decedent.

But, we control ourselves.


I suppose, If we were to behave just like animals more primitively, we would be happier.


Our intelligent have killed ourselves.

regret about communications.

When I am asked for my opinion about the asker's future, what to do, and which is better, I have two choices which are learned from my countless life's failures.


The choices are to tell my opinion honestly without distorting it, or to say blurred and general opinion like it's okay and good. Option to tell a lie in favorable way was eliminated due to my value that no lie is preferred. If I tell a lie, I feel ethically guilty.


So, Today I chose first one and said things directly as I thought.


It resulted in creating bad atmosphere between me and her, although I just wanted help her. I don't know if I say things offensively to her somehow or acted badly to her.


This is not first time for me. It's happened third in my life, including this.


In every cases, I almost let someone go in opposite to my will. And I regret these things. I didn't learn any thing from the past.


Why? because I couldn't find the best answers.


I don't want make even white lie. It's still a lie.


If I say things generally, the reaction will be negative. People think that I am thinking any thing about them or I don't care them.


If I say my true opinion which may be offensive for some people, I will be regarded as cruel and thoughtless man.



I truly don't know what is best answer. I'm always considerate for those who ask me for help. I never mean to hurt them. I just suggest things so that things will work for you.


Being realistic is not good position in this life. Should I change? Should I be a person who encourage people, even though it's a lie. I don't wanna be that.



help me! What is best?

the place where I 'd like to go before I die

The place that I want to visit before I die is a great beach.

To be more specific, my ideal beach has as clear sea as the visibility is highly transparent, under the roasting sun and a few or no clouds, with a few people around me.

When I watched Shawshank's redemptions, at the ending of it, I was impressed and touched by the beauty of the beach. It was very bright, There were two colors; one is sea, one is beach, sand, contrasting each other.


In my hometown in Japan, in the province that it belongs to, there is a sea. but it's not something that you choose for seeing beauty of landscape. I mean it is a officailly beach, but I don't think so. It should be defined as beach to bathe in, not to see.

Yeah, I want the beach which is good both to swim in and see.




People has different place to go, where do you wanna go?

Personaly is not just 4.

Can brood type determine which characteristic you have?


In Japan, there is a prevailing Idea that Brood type determines or affects your personality.


Type A is known as organized, punctual, neat, and particular about cleanness. On the other side, Type B, which is mine, is considered BAD. For example, Type B person go his own way. Don’t care the others. I am thought to be lazy just because of Type B. more than that, I feel shocked and depressed when I say I’m B and everybody look at me with sad and pitiful eyes.

I want to say. Do you think it is possible to divide our diverse personalities in the world into 4 types? I don’t want to believe it and that I belong to bad one.


Our personality which we see in usual situations formed in early in our life, and comes from three points, Heredity, Environment, Situations.

Heredity is what you get from your parents and is programmed in your DNA. So, this is something like inevitable. If both of your parent and you are impatient, you should attribute it to your parents, you better give up.



Environments are where you’ve grown up. They’re house, school, your peer, community, town, everywhere you’ve been in. For example, If you belonged to the strict soccer club where you had to maintain high level of politeness to the older, your personality is likely to be polite.



Situation is where you are at that time. People skillfully adapt themselves to different situation in an appropriate way. Different situations require different personality. You see the people who change themselves to be attractive in front of girls, although he is just shy. It’s our nature.


So, Personality is made up on the basis of these three points, and it doesn’t matter which brood type you have, Absolutely NOT.



This is what I wanted to say. Thank you for your attention.

Compilicated society.

the world has developed.


We have still the region that is difficult to be called DEVELOPED because of its lack of materials.
Those who live in such a region are being exploited by much developed countries.


but generally The world has been developing and it creates this too complicated society.


If you want to survive this society, you will be encouraged to be educated to go to good university, where you find it easy to live university life because you can corporate with your peer for the test, and you can also cheat on the teacher. you will feel there is no need to study, and this is a place to enjoy because everyone does. you will graduate without any special knowledge that you could learn about your major.


After that, you have to send your resume to 100 companies and visit them and be screened by interviewer. It's very all the harder and tougher for this economic crisis. But it's your duty. Everything is for The job.


If you're so lucky, some companies will pick up and hire you. whether it is your ideal job that you're looking for or not, you have to take one. Otherwise you will be looked down on by the other.


However, remember that what you managed to get is the start of end of your life.

In the work place, you will be commanded by your boss. This is the very hierarchical world where you have to obey the boss If he or she says"2+2=5". You cannot deny it. you work like ant.
One thing that you feel is your income is limited even if your performance is excellent. you realize that you are working for the profit of the others, not directly for you and you are just one gear that is found in a big machine. that gear doesn't affect whole organization in your absenteeism. you are scared by the fear of risk that you can be replaced easily. there are so many alternatives. everybody wants your position. Only you can do is just work desperately.

It lasts until you retire or drop out.


In the life after you retire, What is lurking for you is the life full of worries. the government neglect or fail to pay your pensions for some reasons. so you should be careful not to spend so much money for your enjoyment. you save money although you are looking for gorgeous and relaxed and peaceful life.






After I've written this, I feel sad. I suppose this is an ordinary life that most people face.


It's sad.


So what I wanted to say is that I feel nervous when I think about future.


escape from reality is worth seeking.