I think no one really reads my blog so yea, i guess i can write stuff down here...
I just let nikki and lezlie read my diary (白くん） and the only person who i trust is Nich, but noo....
heres what happed..
me and nikki we're arguing about me and her not speaking and ignoring each other all the time.
so yea, then i started to talk about me and what happened yesterday, and that i'm confused about my feelings.
when i danced with him, i dont really know if i felt anything or not...(its like I want to go and hug him just to check if i still like him or not) this is getting annoying. so i said, without thinking, i gave nikki my diary to read, cuz i wanted her to understand what i'm staying about him. then lezlie saw nikki reading it and said "Ang daya mo!" (which me, its not fair! in tagalog) so i was so stupid enough to say "oo na, sge sge na! go!" ( yes, ok ok, go!) so she stole it from nikki and right then i realized what i just did! i just let most of my secrets go, i.... im so stupid! wtf is wrong with me.!!
ok ok, negative energy coming my way!! IM HAPPY!
so then, nich saw it, and said, "why? why did you give it to them?" i answered i dont know, i wasnt thinking! right then i was so worried in whats going to happen if they told him.
i dunno!!!!!!
AHH! im so confused!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
CONFUSION!
i think it was a mistake...
i felt like i wanted to cry today, for only one reason, CONFUSED
i want to know if i have feelings for him or not!
i hate it!
i tried my very best to block my feelings away, and stop my self from running to the bathroom and crying my eyes out.
I AM HAPPY!
I just let nikki and lezlie read my diary (白くん） and the only person who i trust is Nich, but noo....
heres what happed..
me and nikki we're arguing about me and her not speaking and ignoring each other all the time.
so yea, then i started to talk about me and what happened yesterday, and that i'm confused about my feelings.
when i danced with him, i dont really know if i felt anything or not...(its like I want to go and hug him just to check if i still like him or not) this is getting annoying. so i said, without thinking, i gave nikki my diary to read, cuz i wanted her to understand what i'm staying about him. then lezlie saw nikki reading it and said "Ang daya mo!" (which me, its not fair! in tagalog) so i was so stupid enough to say "oo na, sge sge na! go!" ( yes, ok ok, go!) so she stole it from nikki and right then i realized what i just did! i just let most of my secrets go, i.... im so stupid! wtf is wrong with me.!!
ok ok, negative energy coming my way!! IM HAPPY!
so then, nich saw it, and said, "why? why did you give it to them?" i answered i dont know, i wasnt thinking! right then i was so worried in whats going to happen if they told him.
i dunno!!!!!!
AHH! im so confused!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
CONFUSION!
i think it was a mistake...
i felt like i wanted to cry today, for only one reason, CONFUSED
i want to know if i have feelings for him or not!
i hate it!
i tried my very best to block my feelings away, and stop my self from running to the bathroom and crying my eyes out.
I AM HAPPY!