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Aloha guys.

I just thought that I need to write here about my feeling.

I've been happy of course; however, sometimes I feel like dying for something that i never know.

Also, I've been thinking these days how my life has changed since 2 years.
Every time when i talk with a person who is first time to see me, one asks me that did you speak english before I come here. Of course, I didn't. I tell one that when I came here, I couldn't speak English at all, which is true. Talking with new friends is a great opportunity for me. Because I have the best boyfriend, I have this opportunity. I'm always thankful for him to give me that and my parents to support me living here in Hawaii.

if I didn't have an opportunity that I am here in Hawaii, I am not who i am now.
If I couldn't speak English like now, I couldn't have a boyfriend like my baby because the necessary thing for relationship is communication. i am really glad to speak English and know who i am.

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Aloha guys :)
It has been a whole to post.
I've been happy recently :)
My boy makes me happy that's why ♡

I've lived in Hawaii for a year and 4 months, which is awesome and super nice.
I mean I experienced a lot of good and bad things.
It makes me stronger and stronger.

But this summer was fucking junk you know...
I had been bitch before I met my bf.
My boy made me realize that it was not good for me.
Also, I lost some friends who were with me until this summer.


I realized that a family "O'hana" is the best.
I miss them for sure, but they always support and help me.
Mahalo always giving me a lot of Aloha.
The good thing is that no more homesick just I miss them.


Actually I'll go back to Japan on December 21st to January 13rd.
Because of SEIJINSHIKI !!
I will be able to see my besties ♡
Wait for me and prepare for enjoying just 3 weeks :)

Anyways....
I'll go to North Shore tomorrow morning to cursing :p



I give you guys Aloha when I go back to Japan :))


Mahalo♡


Finally I realized that the f**kin damn person is me.
Fuck myself.


How have i been these days ?
I should live my own life and make myself happy.
So damn.

I'm sorry myself because I've been just shit.
I gained weight a lots; in other words, I look so damn.

Ah I don't know what to do.

But i know what to do.


何でこんなクソなんだろう。皆は夢に向かってさ
バイトして金貯めて勉強して遊んでうまくやってってるのに。
恋愛だ?ふざけてる、何中心に生きてんだよ。
何で逃げてるの?くそくらえ。
自分の為に生きなきゃじゃんか。自分を愛することから始めよう。


I promise that I love myself. 8/8/2014