New Year

I haven't got the chance to write an entry until today. So Happy New Year everyone and here's the first post of 2009.

I guess I'll start, as usual, with resolutions for the new year. I could only think of 2 things right now.

1. I wanna weigh at most 52kg by the end of this year.

2. I wanna be doing something useful by the end of this year; be it working a good job at a good company or seriously helping my dad's business or doing my own business (doubtful) or doing an MBA or even learning Mandarin in China I'd consider useful for now.

Two simple things. Shouldn't be too hard to achieve.. or will it? We shall see.

Anyways, I went to China for the year-end break. It was a good trip. That was my first time to China.. cuz I've always doubted China as a fun place to visit in the past. But I guess I was proved wrong. Lol. I went to Shantou (my great3xgrandparents homeland), Shanghai and Guangzhou.

Well, Shantou is not somewhere I dream to live at. The traffic is horrible -- not because of heavy traffic, but the people there just know no traffic rules. People can drive on the opposite direction street and cutting people all they want. Even worse than Jakarta, if you can imagine. Another thing is that the city is very quiet already at 7pm. *wonders what the people there do at night*

I also went to Chaozhou (?).. the Teochew village. Visited the "The" clan. Hehehe, seriously, in there, they still have like specific places for each family name. Interesting, eh? I saw the old house of my great3xgrandparents when they were still living there. Very sad, the house is really small. >.< Even until today, the people who still live there have shared public toilets. :|

But Shanghai is definitely different. It's a fun, dynamic, metropolitan city. I think it'll be much more fun to work in Shanghai than Singapore. After seeing the city, I'm even more interested to study there.. either MBA or language school. But I don't know, some parts of me still feel abit weird and scared, probably, to go there by myself. No idea why. Maybe I grow more coward as I grow older. :S Had no problem of such thing in the past. The desire to study/work there is still there, nevertheless.

Finally, remember a link I posted before of a brave woman who was diagnosed with advanced-stage breast cancer? Before the holidays, she wrote an entry about her stomach pain and her doctor said that the cancer cells have (I think) spread to her liver which is definitely dangerous. Then after that, no entries for 1-2 weeks(?). I wondered what happened to her? But there are updates again after some time. *phew* But poor her, she wrote that her life span is left with 2-3 months. >.< I feel for her. Her kids are still so young, both under 10 years old. Well, I hope all the best for her and her fam.

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omgg... britney is having tour around the US next year. and she's actually coming to SJ. sighsighsigh. if only she came same time last year. i'd definitely go for the concert. hixhixhix. so sad.

future, britney, lilo

Haha, I just read Anna's new blog post and it just mirrors my own situation now. Student > Unemployed, definitely. At least when we were still students, we are still full of hope of how we will be post-graduation. But after being unemployed for some time, somehow that hope is diminishing.

Anyway, I was just thinking of how it will be if I stay back and help my dad's business instead -- as my parents have been inferring. After thinking (not long), I have a feeling of like.. disappointment (?) somehow. Feels like, "is this it? after all the studying and bla bla bla that I have done, I'm gonna stay put in Indo?" I guess in my mind there used to be a grander thing than that. I don't know what to do.

My parents have also said (well since I was still in Indiana) that I have lack of planning lately, unlike how I used to be during Sec School and maybe College too. I kinda feel that too but I don't necessarily think it's a bad thing. As I grow up, I guess I learn to be more realistic. What's the use of planning "I want to do this.. that and that" but in the end, you can't really have those? Of course there are some exceptions, like "I wanna get a Balen, Miu Miu and wanna travel the world." Huahaha. Even though many of them can't come true, but the thought of the 2nd plan is more enjoyable.

Moving on. I didn't plan to focus this entry on those depressing issues actually, but it got here somehow. What I wanted to write about was: .... Britney Spears. HAHAHA. And some of Lindsay Lohan. So here they come.

Britney just released her new album last week but I still haven't got the chance to buy it. I went to a Disc Tarra at GI on Dec 2nd (the day it got released) but it wasn't available yet. Since then I haven't seen another CD store. I just realized that Indo don't have that many such stores nowadays. Maybe cuz there are too many pirated ones. I heard the new album is very nice. I only heard 2 songs so far and they are good. hehe of course! :P

Oh and I just saw the pictures of her at Rockefeller Center, lighting up the huge Christmas tree or sth. She's wearing very decent (ga kyk kekurangan bahan gitu) clothes recently and it looks so much better on her. Like the olden times. :) Go Britney!

Next. I sometimes read Lindsay Lohan's blog. I like the way she writes. And the other day she wrote an entry and she actually supported Britney, referring to her as " a talented woman." Of course I don't just like her blog cuz of that. Lol. She also despised Sarah Palin. I don't despise her but I just don't think she's suited to be VP of US, just like McCain for President.