。.+:｡(人*´∀｀)A.F.

the weather was so messy today

but i still dragged myself to attend 360 class

i didn't want to be there at all, AT ALL

anyway, this attractive girl (A.F.) came in right after i sat down

i have been noticing her since the first day of class

she had long locks hair and very natural style

her eyes are just so pretty

i think she's really beautiful someway

then the 3 week of class she came in with short hair

i mean short short hair

i think most people looked at her more than once when she walked in

cause she became even more attractive

at least to me

i was telling my housemates about this girl

then luli said she saw a girl that is so attractive too

and ended up we were talking about the same girl

so in today class i couldn't stop peeking at her

and she seemed to notice that too

im saying that she saw me continuously looking at her

but then we both quickly looked at something else after having eye contacts each time

haha in my little world of fantasy

i imagined her comes up and introduces herself to me

ok, i really wish that i will have chance to meet her in real life

GPHY 352 midterm

i was a bit disappointed and upset about the gphy midterm i wrote this morning

i knew the stuff but i just didn't have enough time to write the whole thing

and my mind was blank cause i was so panic of lacking time

ahhhhhhhhhhhhh i know i did bad on this midterm

i guess the main reason i was upset is because obviously this whole midterm is testing us if we did the readings, attended the lectures and seminars or not.

i did everything! and i understand majority of them

but i just didn't have enough time to finish the midterm

（*´ヘ｀*;）

fine! i will just work harder next time

ran out of power

i actually finished all the readings for gphy 352 midterm

amazinggggg

but then i feel like mixing up the materials from other courses

at night i was out studying in the living room with luli

i was reviewing my lecture and seminar notes

around 11 i took a break from studying

THEN THE POWER RAN OFF

haha we were so scared

the first thing i could think of was that i didn't pay utilities

but actually more than 1 building ran out of power

so our romantic night started

we burnt candles in the living room

then i was burning marshmallow on top of the candles!

even though the power only ran off for like 20 mins

but i guess i was so lucky that i finished all readings and notes

i would probably cry and super panic instead of burning marshmallow!

traffic light

i get kinda confused sometimes

like i don't know if im right or wrong

i don't know if i should say sorry just to make things better

or i should hold on to what i believe

after fellowship, me and luli walked home together

then at the last traffic light crossroad

the red sign was flashing

(yellow light was on for the traffic side)

she grabbed my arm and tried to run

but then i stopped

she was mad cause this wasn't the first time i stopped when she wanted to run

i told her i was scared but i guess the big part of it was that i didn't want to run

what is the point of risking my own life

i don't want to get kill by a car even tho i don't think that would happen

and she knew it too

but she said that i should trust her for just once

(giving my life to her?)

well the silent moment came up when we were waiting for green light

then when we started walking she said sorry to me

ermm i didn't know how to respond

i don't know if i should say sorry too

cause i didn't trust her i guess

i really like her as a friend

like i know what i would respond if that wasn't her

was i wrong too?

i really wish that she will tell her fami about this

and someone can actually tell her what is right

i think it's weird to think like that

i don't know, maybe?

i guess i should focus on my 352 midterm, 360 draft, and 330 proposal

instead of thinking something that already ended

ok school... i need to get some more sleep before my study weekend starts

wmns 360 lectures

yesterday morning i was really frustrated

cause i couldn't find anything particularlly for my 360 research essay

my topic is on gays and lesbians peranting,

how masculinities and masculine ideology carry out, recasted, rejected.. something like that

but i could only find journals about gays and lesbians peranting in general

not in terms of masculinities

ahh so i didn't have my outline ready for class

i was kinda disappointed in yesterday class

we discussed our experiences for 2 hours!

2 hours! the whole conversation was funny and relaxing

but i don't think i learn a lot from that at all

then prof talked about the readings for like less than 30 mins

and then last part- assignment outline discussion

i didn't stay for the last part

i was kinda upset that he said we would take attendance after the break

like many people stayed for 2:30 hrs

and we were see as absence cause we didn't stay for the last 20 mins

well, thats my problem i know

but i couldn't stay cause we have to work in pairs

and i don't have my outline ready

so i emailed my TA last night to make an appointment

sigh

at the beginning of this term, 360 was actually my favourite

but now.. boooooo

i do learn things from this course,

but they are mostly from the readings & videos

and not the lectures