the time just changed!
haha i still remember first year i totally forgot about this
and i went to class an hr early. so dumb
im still struggling with my 360 paper
i just don't know how to start
ahhhh i don't know
so i turned insane tonight
(i guess i was trying to release some stress?!)
we went on youtube and searched for video to sing and dance
i was learning that soulja boy dance hahah stupid
after all the fun- back to reality
AHHHHH stressful school life i hate you
wow i talked in 330 tut yesterday
hahaha TA was just so nice(・∀・)
i went to lib after class
i was actually looking for books for myself
not for 360 paper
but then Ian came by and he was looking for sources too
so we were talking about this paper
and he told me he was finished 
(i still haven't started yet)
but he just found out that he didn't answer the main question for the paper
"masculinities in a cross-cultural context"
omg i would probably missing the same thing if i didn't talk to him
so lucky
but right now im struggling with the sources
i can't find anything that is useful for my paper!
crap
i just logged in my xanga acc and saw that fu jaies went to bbq last night
ermm seriously im so jealous
i want to work and then i can hang out with them whenever i want
i want to have fun with them
i want to laugh with them
i want to share everything with them
i just wanna be there with them
i miss my friends and fami
i miss home.. so bad
alright, this is not the first time i leave home
i will be fine when i get up tomorrow morning
正しいことばかり选べない
それくらいわかってる
it's halloween today
this is not like i really care
i just have so many other stuffs i need to care for
but still im hoping i will see someone in costume on campus later
so jealous at people that are done.. ahh
im on my wayyyy
another tuesday is amost over
i still remember how i felt last week in 360 lect
my feeling toward "this" is still the same
or should i say even stronger?
i have like tons of questions inside my head right now
but im not going to say it out loud
since im not ready to tell or ask anybody yet
what to do next? i don't know
this sounds so crazy
but i kinda know about this along the way!
why should i be scared?
better days will come (yeh right)
shit i just typed "im lost" for the title
i have been learning how to deal with these issues for 3 years!
and i just said im lost
even worse
