Damn last blog was back on the 9th..
I really don't have much to say..
I mean I been sick recently,
I got better, slowly.

Found new music which sucking my in.
Ah, going to be working at A-kon.
I can't wait for that, I am looking forward.

I am really excited about meeting Exist Trace.
Mostly Mally, Miko and Jyou.
I found myself having a girl crush on Mally.
She's so pretty (=⌒▽⌒=)
Ginger is what finally got me liking her.

Ahhh~ oh well~ but it has been forever since I blogged.
Or even wrote what I was feeling.
I guess I'm tired of all the shit in my life..
Just learned to tune it out...

The friends I had are now gone..
I don't think none of them have time for me..
Or for anything anymore..
I mean I expected to see them on msn but nothing..

I look like a fool just waiting for them.
When I know they're not coming on...
Oops look at me.. ranting about this..
Psh, well nothing new in my life,
nothing old in my life.
Basically the same as it's ever been..

Boring, Lonely, Calm.
Yeah, Valentines day is coming up slowly.
I do have dinner plans with my BF.
And I am going to be buying my cosplay outfits.
For A-kon (≡^∇^≡)
I plan to cosplay Miko buuuut, I don't think it'll be good.
But I'll give it my best (^-^)/

Bye for now my

Absinthe Lovers~
All last night I knew I smelt nail polish
But continued to sleep cause I knew I used it
So that had to be the reason for the smell..

I woke up still smelling it
I did what I did every morning
Turned on my light in my dark room
Sat down at the computer

Checked my facebook and Ameba.
Peta people back.
This time I looked down and seen...

(-3-) a full bottle of my red nail polish tilted
I tried to grab it but it was stuck....
The nail polish hand spilled...

All over my desk..
On to my two nail polish
And the underneath of my computer
this sucks...

I wish I knew where my nail polish remover was (T^T)
and it's all over my fingers cause I was trying to get it off
NASTY!!! (TT^TT)
I love making things
especially out of clay

I love how my roses came out

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my first roses look amazing

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v(^-^)v


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I dreamt of a love to pure,
That only I could touch.
A love so happy I'd drown in it.
You showed me that I could actually smile.
That it wasn't as fake as I made it to be.
My dreams were filled with happiness.

I should have known that it was just a dream.
Nothing could be this real, nothing.
My mind was just playing with me, thats all.
My heart broken to pieces.
No glue, no love, no tears.. could fix it.

My happy dreams turned dark.
It was my own nightmare, dark, blood.
I dreamt of blood, cutting my wrist.
Cutting it so deep, that there'd be no hope.
Everything I gave was taken and thrown to the ground.

I am nothing to you, that's why you broke me.
Thrown me away, tossed like a broken doll.
Because that's what I am to you, nothing more..
then a broken doll.
A-kon was more fun this year~
I dressed up like Twilight Sparkle..
Had my picture taken I don't know how many times.
I was hugged I don't know how many times..

It was fun~ got to see AYABIE live *O*
I had Intetsu's pick hit my shoe I got his pick!
My sister got Kenzo's drumstick.
they were amazing live~

As for OZ they were amazing as well~
I been into OZ for a long time.
They were just "Wow"
I got Natsuki's empty water bottle which hit my leg.

The only thing was
I wish I could have gone to the signing.
But I had to work in the J-pop room.
But meeting them was the best!
Getting to touch Intetsu..
well he touched me but still!
I will remember that~

Just like meeting D *O*
but I soo failed when asked
if I had anything to say to Natsuki
the only think I could think of was...
"I love you" but it's awesome he loved me back XD
I gave one of my rings to one of the guys~
I'm glad he liked it though X3
it made me happy to see him show me he put it on~

But.. the worse part was..
the fighting between my sister and her mom..
Her mom complaining about not coming next year..
because she wanted her daughter to do
"Geek speed dating" thing and she didn't want too..

But what put me off was when Nash and her and me
where talking about the band I said
I would soo love to go to Japan, say like
if one of OZ asked me..

I find it odd that she keeps saying
"If you need a green card"
when these guys are younger then her..
I don't know..

But it made me upset that she said this to me.
"You have to go through me
if you want to break up with Sheldon, I like him"
Um, that's not right you can't tell me that..
It's my life and my boyfriend not yours..
You can say if he hurts you then I'll hurt him..
you can't say
you have to go through me to break up with him.

Nope you can't tell me that..
No one has the right to say that..
but in all A-kon was fun again
Looking forward to A-kon 24~
Soooo A-kon is around the corner.
The only thing going through my mind.
Is, if I have everything?
Do I have this and that?
Do I need this?

ugh and the packing a suitcase..
I hate packing and playing tetis.
But still this year will be better.
I get to cosplay but not only that..

Again I get to see a concert.
Last year was my favorite band D!
and of course blood stain child..

But this year
-OZ-!!! will be there (≧▽≦)
The fifth or fourth band I got into
and then AYABIE!!
another band I got into!!

I hope it'll be like last year
touching them and meeting them
getting some of my stuff signed by them (≧▽≦)

I just can't wait..
I'm going to take lots of pictures while there.

(≧▽≦) at the movies with my sister
so far seeing the hulk not the one with Eric Bana but the one with Edward Norton it was alright but I like Eric Bana better as the hulk but next ironman 2 which I haven't seen yet so I'm excited till it gets to midnight for THE AVENGERS!!!!!!
☆*:.。. o(≧▽≦)o .。.:*☆

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