So, does anyone else like thunderstorms? haha there's one happening now and it's pretty epic! I've officially been a lazy ass and I haven't blogged on here in too long. Sorry for the delay! However, i have officially finished ALL WORK for school!! YAY I just have to study now - and i also deleted my emo LJ post, because I had a mini epiphany while watching NANA and then some other animes, I realized what I love...asian stuff 
haha. It made me throw things into perspective and remember...I NEVER was a person to worry about the future, I was always optimistic and never ever like what I am now. I'm done being a pile of mush. I need things to change and I'm going to make them change. i'm not going to let myself get carried away about the future I will take it incredibly slow.
so what I got a flat tire?
so what I have no job?
so what I will be in school forever?
My poppop will be ok.
I got through the flat tire incident and will be more careful in driving.
I'll curb my spending and I won't worry about it, when I see a job that's right for me I'll snatch it! Until then, I can survive, This summer all my friends have jobs so maybe that means I won't have to spend that much? I don't know this is the only thing that's TRULY worrying me - so until my money REALLY starts running out. I will casually look for jobs, and when I see the right one, I can grasp it
My poppop will be ok, he's coming home he'll get settled in with help and then if i don't get to go to cali oh well, if i do - that's great too.
I have to remember who i was and not freak out over this kinda of stuff anymore. NO NO NO freaking out. just breathe.
I can make this life work.
AAA's single this week will be amazing.
Mother's day present
Gotta fix this stupid amazon order that was WRONG let's hope they email me back soon!
Can't wait to spend some time with friends that I haven't seen in a while!
haha. It made me throw things into perspective and remember...I NEVER was a person to worry about the future, I was always optimistic and never ever like what I am now. I'm done being a pile of mush. I need things to change and I'm going to make them change. i'm not going to let myself get carried away about the future I will take it incredibly slow.so what I got a flat tire?
so what I have no job?
so what I will be in school forever?
My poppop will be ok.
I got through the flat tire incident and will be more careful in driving.
I'll curb my spending and I won't worry about it, when I see a job that's right for me I'll snatch it! Until then, I can survive, This summer all my friends have jobs so maybe that means I won't have to spend that much? I don't know this is the only thing that's TRULY worrying me - so until my money REALLY starts running out. I will casually look for jobs, and when I see the right one, I can grasp it
My poppop will be ok, he's coming home he'll get settled in with help and then if i don't get to go to cali oh well, if i do - that's great too.
I have to remember who i was and not freak out over this kinda of stuff anymore. NO NO NO freaking out. just breathe.
I can make this life work.
AAA's single this week will be amazing.
Mother's day present
Gotta fix this stupid amazon order that was WRONG let's hope they email me back soon!
Can't wait to spend some time with friends that I haven't seen in a while!