That such a surprising and very deppressing scene appear in my whole brain every fucking single moment.
It seems that will never stop for a while. Even comes in my sweet dreams.
Just wondering what the hell I was used to do after facing a shocking awful reality?
Talking with friends? Working quite hard? Sleeping and crying all day?
Nothing suits on the answer what I want to figure out.
It's much better if I could cut this part down from my head.