I am drained and tired.
Carried 2 bags that contained 100s small bags to the hospital where my mother waited for me.
I discovered so many cheap shopping bags, gym bags, cosmetic bags, grocery bags, handbags, shoulder bags, and waist bags in her house. I gathered the ridiculous amount of bags and took photos to show to my mother.
Asked my mother about them, yet she had no memory of them, and she said she would like to see them, so I physically brought them to her.
The contents of two heavy bags covered her hospital bed, and she acknowledged her shopping addiction.
My mother wanted to keep just one bag out of the 100.
We tried to entice anyone in the hospital to take some bags with them.
Nurses told me that they cannot take them for personal use, yet 4 or 5 bags were taken for hospital use, such as carrying insulin tubes. And two old ladies who are staying in the same room with my mother picked up a couple of bags.
After seeing the bags, my mother wanted to go out, to buy a tablet and stroll the city as she was generally bored in the hospital. I told her that we did decide not to get her a tablet day before and that I was too tired to take her out. She looked disappointed.
I have been enjoying Japanese food in Osaka, however, I miss my freedom and life in San Francisco when she tells me to find a job in Osaka. Because she is the same authoritarian selfish mother who thinks about herself all the time and I exist only to support her demand in her mind.
It's been 10 days since I am spending so many hours with my mother, and she definitely sucks my energy out of me. And I recall something she said to me when I was like 8: "You suck up my life, time, and money. No use, but a burden."
I need a day off from her.
Now at 7 pm, I am going to bed.
Oyasumi nasai.