We went to Kona to have lunch yesterday. And then went to Zapada to have a cup of coffee. We talked about violence. I think the guy's words are as good as violence. I really hate that. He has no idea how I feel all the time. I know I should leave him, no point to staying with him. But I don't know why I still want to staying with him. I am a very typical woman who is staying with a big jerk. I know that in my head, but my heart is a bit different, still wants to believe in him. Damn it! I wish I didn't like him. I am tired about myself. Sorry Mai, I talked about him a little bit too much and I was a bit emotional. Thanks for listened to me. I look forward to going to Shizunami girls contest with you next month!