There were a lot of things I didn't know and couldn't do well, so I was often confused, so I decided to retire, but now that I think about it, there were a lot of things I learned here, and everyone was a good person.
If I could work harder here, I might have grown more.
IThat's why it's very disappointing that I can't hope for growth.
But it's a decision, and I'm the best family, I don't regret this decision, and I don't think I should regret it.
The time when I can only do what I like is over. I've already become a mother, so now I have to think about my family first and make actions and decisions.
This is not a sad thing, but a natural thing. It's a natural thing that everyone goes through.
For the first time, I think with all my heart, I'm sored.
ほんとはそう思ってるのも事実だもん、いいよね。
毎日頑張ったもん、少しくらいいいよね。。。
来月から気持ち切り替えるから、うざくてごめん。
来月からまた頑張るから、今だけ、ごめん。
大人になりきれなくて、ごめん。
もっと早くいろんなことに気づきたかった。