hello! 
i haven't been posting much for several reasons. first, in one of my class, we were assigned 3 homework on the same day and it was also due at the same time. it got postponed a few times due to circumstances, but it was just still too much to do! my brain was fried afterwards 
i thought the homeworks were due at 10AM so the night before, i stayed up unitl 3-4AM to do as much as i can and submit. when i woke up, some of my classmates were asking about how to solve the homework problems even after the deadline. then it clicked that i was mistaken, and it was actually due 10PM that night! i double checked the due time and yeah i was wrong. had more time to finish up more problems. i couldn't complete everything but did as best as i could. man this is just too much. exams are coming up soon so hopefully everything goes well!
another reason was that i felt kinda down recently. i lost a friend awhile back (lost as in no longer friends), and it was just heartbreaking. i was already anticipating this because we had quite a few fights leading up. well anyways, i have been recovering and still am, but i was at a point where it didn't affect me too much. maybe slightly, once in a few weeks. i took a step forward and deleted them from my social medias. seeing them just saddens me, so in doing this i hope to help me lessen the emotions. now i was once on their nintendo family plan. when we went our separate ways, i was still on it. i didn't say anything and kept being part of it until it came to a time where i was not allowed in, which i totally understand because we have no relation with each other anymore. however, they suddenly kicked me out without giving me a heads up. like i would really appreciate if you simply told me "hey i'm gonna kick you out of the family plan". i would be ok and pay for my own or join another friend's plan. but no! i received an automatic email from nintendo saying i was kicked out by that friend. it just came out of nowhere while i was eating! that made me angry. i play animal crossing and do lots of trading, so what if i was in the middle of trading and suddenly i was blocked from traveling? i would be like what??? huh??? i would have been in a bigger mess. bottom line, i was straight up infuriated. i wanted to badly send them a passive aggressive? very sarcastic message (actually we haven't talked since we stop being friends), but i thought wouldn't it be petty of me to do that? at night, i couldn't sleep because it bothered me so much, so i gave in and sent a message to give a piece of my mind. get this off my chest. i then kicked them out of my friend's group chat because before, they were hanging out with my friends who i hold close to my heart. idk how to explain it well, but i just felt like if this person was hanging out with my important friends, i feel as if they're interfering with my life in a bad way. there was this peak angry emotion that prompted me to do all these things. after doing all this, i felt a bit more relieved.
to break away from the negative emotions, i suddenly revisited the anime かみちゃまかりん. i watched this when i was in elementary, so it brings back so much memories. watching it at a young age, i didn't get the plot too much? like there are gaps here and there but i didn't mind it because it was overall cute. as i rewatch, i now notice things i haven't before like i understand and kinda felt some of the lines at a deeper meaning using the experiences i've been through. basically i sympathize more because i have those same thoughts and feelings. also there are a few scenes where they lowkey highlight lgbtq/gender roles in society. i know back then, the little me wouldn't have understand a thing. i sped through the whole series in one day LOL. started at night, stayed up until 4AM, finished the rest after i woke up. no regrets. it was all in all a cute anime that bought back memories 
では！
✽ ゆきな ✽