surprised by myself

From last Saturday to Sunday, I had been with my boyfriend.

Ate breakfast, lunch and dinner, walk together and went shopping together.

At Sunday night, he said, "I'll go back around 8 pm. I'll study with my classmates for my nursing work."

So. he is a nurse school student and busy now.

What is more, next weekend I'm going to have tennis matches at Mie.


That is...we cannot meet until next next Saturday at least.
It's for two weeks!

When I began to consider so, tear flew and didn't stop.
I didn't wanna cry of course, but I was not be able to stop my tear flowing.
I don't understand why that happened.

I was sorry to make him upset.


I thought it was very foolish, but I noticed I had tear of missing someone.

Do you like to listen to someone's love story?

First, I must apologyze to you for writing about my sweetheart.

Because I can't write them on mixi or twitter for some reasons.


These days, I feel unrelaxed.
I cannot help thinking whether he loves me as I love him.

This is the proof that I am tend to like him much more than before, I think.


Yesterday I took pictures(Purikura) with him.
I've been looking at the pictures and smiling...

I can't say such story to anyone.


Ah, I wish I could see him every day.

Am I afraid of loving someone?

Sometimes I want to make sure.


Isn't this feeling fake?


Even if my feeling is real, until when will this feeling last?


This is because I'm afraid of losing my feeling to my boyfriend.


Of course I like him so much and I'm happy now.


But I cannot help thinking "Am I allowed to be such happy?".


Um..

If it's good or bad, I smiled and dropped tears a little (I don't know why) when I saw the mail from him.


"i love u so much!!

good night @nd sweet dreams;)"


I felt "very like" and "love" were different.