I walked to the shrine this afternoon. It is my 5th day. I said to myself while walking: one day I'm going to be rich and going to get my revenge on everybody who hurt me including my own family.

I was mad at my mother because she did not allow me to buy a tennis racket because she said something like I easily get bored after I possess one thing.

I was excited about the thought of playing tennis everyday with a friend and then lose weight. But it just ruined. I am upset until now and I didn't face my mother. I didnt work tonight too. I didn't schedule any slots for today.

I just want to vanish.

I ate custard cake. Brownie, carbonara, mango float,longganisa for breakfast, 2 eggs for dinner and also some rice. So much calories.

I am so negative. I miss having fun with my elementary classmates.

Misha said he will tell me about a better idea about how to earn money. I havent replied to him yet. I hope he is not mad at me. I did not make youtube channel yet.

4-18-21: Many Sweets to Eat but I'm Mad