I've finally come back to this blog after such a long time! I remember using this back when I was a junior in high school, now I'm a college student. Every time I re-find my old blogs, I am reminded of how ridiculous I was. The things that made me happy were mainly material back then, as long as I have XYZ, I'll be content. Thinking about it, I've spent so much on CD's that I've rarely touched for the past year. The same can be said of books and movies and stuffed animals. I was such a brat, I'm sure.
Thinking about it now, I'm still almost the same person as back then. I still enjoy buying things and XYZ still makes me happy. Back then, XYZ would be CD's, DVD's, concert tickets and such. Nowadays, it's baking supplies. I've really changed in terms of my baking, I'm no longer the girl that takes the easy way out with cake mixes! Everything I make is from scratch! (*＾ー＾)ノ
Since my last post, I have undergone many ups and downs in my life. I had my first relationship (it was quite brief, I regret causing her that heartache though). I feel in and out of two crushes. I applied to some colleges which accepted me and some which rejected me. I found out who, of my large group of friends, I could trust and who I should simply be wary of. And most recently...
I found a boy. We met on accident, but maybe it was just meant to be. He's always there for me, supporting me and giving me advice. I haven't admitted it here yet, but I'll do so now. I used to cut myself; sometimes because it felt good, other times because I was just so sick of life. I know I was a silly teenager when I started and although I'm still the same silly teenager now, I've matured a bit. I know that life's precious and that I should cherish it... but sometimes I just have my moments where I get hysterical and forget all of that. And thanks to this amazing, wonderful boyfriend of mine, I'm still here. Every time I even think about cutting, every time I'm on the verge of doing it, he pops up in my mind and I feel so disgusted at myself. If someone loves you and you truly love them back, then you won't throw away your life because that's synonymous with you slapping them in the face. Giving up would mean the same thing as saying that their love wasn't worth it, that they didn't love you enough - that you didn't care about them enough. If you truly love a person, you're not supposed to let them go away. If you're allowed to be selfish just once in your life, rather than wish for money or fame or power, you should wish for the person that you love to always be by your side. That's what I think at least, that's what I feel.
Last summer, Mandy introduced me to a new game, La Tale! I've been playing on and off since beta in August. I really like it. C: I guess you can say that I'm addicted, but it's not affecting my schoolwork, thankfully. In all honesty from what senior year of high school taught me, I get better grades when I play games. I'm not saying that it's a good thing to play games so much but from how I do things, I finish all of my homework before I play. That way, I don't fall behind in school and I won't be interrupted when I'm playing later. :) It's win-win! I have a level 130 treasure hunter as well as a level 85/86 bard. I made a lot of wonderful friends there, some that I know will be my close friends forever. о(ж＞▽＜)ｙ ☆
Speaking of Mandy, I've known this girl since I was in first grade although we really didn't become friends until maybe seventh grade. She was a part of the "popular" group and I simply didn't like anyone back then. But once we became friends, I knew I could confide in her. She's an amazing listener and she's fun to be around, I could honestly say that she's one of my closest friends. Well, regarding Mandy, she's been having a hard time in college so I'm thinking about baking cookies for her and maybe some coffee cake? She hasn't been able to eat lately and I can't really cook so I thought I'd just bake her things. It might not be the best idea, but it's still a part of the past, y'know? I used to bake ever so often and bring it to school to share with my friends, so maybe a bit of "home cooking" or however you want to call it will make her feel a bit better. Junk food's not the greatest but maybe it'll ease her psychologically. （ ´(ェ)｀）
I'm turning 18 in exactly a week. My birthday's on the 8th. Thinking about it, I still have a lot to learn about life and such. These past 18 years, I've spent trying to keep myself happy, but what I've learned over the past few months is that we have to keep the people around us happy, too. It's when everyone can share a smile that you feel weightless. ヽ(*・ω・)人(・ω・*)ノ
Until next time. And as lame as it sounds,
I believe in myself, my best friends, and you.
(・ω・)/
Thinking about it now, I'm still almost the same person as back then. I still enjoy buying things and XYZ still makes me happy. Back then, XYZ would be CD's, DVD's, concert tickets and such. Nowadays, it's baking supplies. I've really changed in terms of my baking, I'm no longer the girl that takes the easy way out with cake mixes! Everything I make is from scratch! (*＾ー＾)ノ
Since my last post, I have undergone many ups and downs in my life. I had my first relationship (it was quite brief, I regret causing her that heartache though). I feel in and out of two crushes. I applied to some colleges which accepted me and some which rejected me. I found out who, of my large group of friends, I could trust and who I should simply be wary of. And most recently...
I found a boy. We met on accident, but maybe it was just meant to be. He's always there for me, supporting me and giving me advice. I haven't admitted it here yet, but I'll do so now. I used to cut myself; sometimes because it felt good, other times because I was just so sick of life. I know I was a silly teenager when I started and although I'm still the same silly teenager now, I've matured a bit. I know that life's precious and that I should cherish it... but sometimes I just have my moments where I get hysterical and forget all of that. And thanks to this amazing, wonderful boyfriend of mine, I'm still here. Every time I even think about cutting, every time I'm on the verge of doing it, he pops up in my mind and I feel so disgusted at myself. If someone loves you and you truly love them back, then you won't throw away your life because that's synonymous with you slapping them in the face. Giving up would mean the same thing as saying that their love wasn't worth it, that they didn't love you enough - that you didn't care about them enough. If you truly love a person, you're not supposed to let them go away. If you're allowed to be selfish just once in your life, rather than wish for money or fame or power, you should wish for the person that you love to always be by your side. That's what I think at least, that's what I feel.
Last summer, Mandy introduced me to a new game, La Tale! I've been playing on and off since beta in August. I really like it. C: I guess you can say that I'm addicted, but it's not affecting my schoolwork, thankfully. In all honesty from what senior year of high school taught me, I get better grades when I play games. I'm not saying that it's a good thing to play games so much but from how I do things, I finish all of my homework before I play. That way, I don't fall behind in school and I won't be interrupted when I'm playing later. :) It's win-win! I have a level 130 treasure hunter as well as a level 85/86 bard. I made a lot of wonderful friends there, some that I know will be my close friends forever. о(ж＞▽＜)ｙ ☆
Speaking of Mandy, I've known this girl since I was in first grade although we really didn't become friends until maybe seventh grade. She was a part of the "popular" group and I simply didn't like anyone back then. But once we became friends, I knew I could confide in her. She's an amazing listener and she's fun to be around, I could honestly say that she's one of my closest friends. Well, regarding Mandy, she's been having a hard time in college so I'm thinking about baking cookies for her and maybe some coffee cake? She hasn't been able to eat lately and I can't really cook so I thought I'd just bake her things. It might not be the best idea, but it's still a part of the past, y'know? I used to bake ever so often and bring it to school to share with my friends, so maybe a bit of "home cooking" or however you want to call it will make her feel a bit better. Junk food's not the greatest but maybe it'll ease her psychologically. （ ´(ェ)｀）
I'm turning 18 in exactly a week. My birthday's on the 8th. Thinking about it, I still have a lot to learn about life and such. These past 18 years, I've spent trying to keep myself happy, but what I've learned over the past few months is that we have to keep the people around us happy, too. It's when everyone can share a smile that you feel weightless. ヽ(*・ω・)人(・ω・*)ノ
Until next time. And as lame as it sounds,
I believe in myself, my best friends, and you.
(・ω・)/