1000

1000 i did it, thax to zillion friends

thank you

tom is the surgery day

at last it came

hello tom

but ur so soon

i guess i can work things out

i guess things wil work things out

i fought with my dad again

he didn't support the idea that i go tom

he was ok with the idea that i go and say good luc and so on to my mom

but thought that the waiting hours during the surgery wasn't so effective.

i cried and screamed like hell

i didnt knw if i could do that

i think that i was scary

anyway im going and he is now fine with it

im tired becz my eyes are somewhat swollen

im tired becz i tensed myself alot

things will work out fine

things will work out fine

things will work out fine

im not scared

im not nervous

im fine ,,calm, steady

just getting tired just a bit

tom is the big day

tom, i give a happy sigh

at the end of the day

lucky

my thousand cranes went up to about 540

so happy

n today during the lunch break, Sayaka, Nobumi, Seisuke, Dama, Ami threw me and Yumi a birthday? party

Nobuko was handling the cake

n we all thougt that the cake would b a round one, but

wat she bought was cubic cakes

i had three

n then they gave us presents

Nobumi; eye pillow, mirror, 入浴剤 the eye pillow is going to be cherished

Seisuke; a stress release keyholder i know that i would use a lot

Saya; Lush soaps that lets out really good smell

Ami; CD of BGM for My blueberry nights that willmake my 'night time' perfect

Yumi; 苗 for a little plant which would let me touch the fresh green and a 置物　of donkey which is real cute

thank you everyone

i guess

lately ive been going to the library

the library is what was once a school

and now books are lined up by signs of colorful stack?

im not sure if this is making sense at all(´∀｀)

i guess i like quiet places

i guess it makes me calm

im looking for someplaces where i can do anything

where i don't have to care about anything

i guess thats what im trying to do when im at circle

doing it but not thinking about whether im doing it correctly

but just doing it

there you are my pessimistic side, your bac again

but acutally i am not down and

acutally i am fine

i guess id like to play little, go to karaoki or somerthing

but thatll have to wait untill things calm down

well, looks like rain has really stoppedfor this time

im going to the library agian