Shinsukesa-----N!!!
I'm SO suprised!!
I already miss you!
For a couple of days, I have been busy during my part-time job.
I have to take over my jobs for someone!
Maybe rest of my pesent canpany's work will pass by without notice.
I felt lonely...
They are going to hold my farewell party this Friday.
I'm soooo happy!!
Everyone is so kind to me!
I think I am really Lucky Girl!
I enjoy this my daily life!
I treat the time I can spend with them as treasure.
bye-byeee Paper Work!!
I hate paper woooorks!!
There is only a month left.
This is very happy to me, but I have to do many?? things.
I have to finish some procedure for my penssions, resident tax and my scholarship.
Ummm only thinking about this, I want to sleep instantly...
Anyway I fight against my lazy mind!!!!
These days Im comparing myself and others.
This comes from thinking what I need for lest of my life.
Someday I wii marry someone I love .
I would like to.
What do I need for marriage?
What do I need for my job?
...etc,
When I see someone who can buy loys of things ( most of are I want), I think because he/she are rich.
When I see someone who can go anywhere even overseas whenever he/she wants to go, I think because he/she has enough money and time.
I want to do like same, so do I must need money and time?
Especially for marriage, they say money is important.
I also think so.
But is that all?
Of course it's not all, but it has main part of marriage?
I dont want to spend lest of my life thinking of the money or wondering about money.
So that, shoud I marriage the man who has enough money or sould I get the stayable job even its not what I want to?
So, I saw the men around me whether the men were good for marriage or not.
This means I saw whether they have enough money to marry someone.
When I hear my friend marris her boyfriend, if he gets a stayabe job, I really think she will be big hppy!
But if he doesn't , I worry about both of their future a bit.
Money is not equal to happiness, I know.
This makes me sooo tired thesedays.
Because I dont want to judge the people!!!
But this automatically causes!
I want to see the people what they are not thinking about there background.
This changed yesterday.
Yesterday, I went to the summer music festival in Kagawa.
There wew lots of people!
Under the sun, we enjoyed the music!
This is my first fes and I really had a exciting, wonderful and good time!
Simply they ,including me ,were enjoying the music,
There was no differences between the people who are rich or not, the people who has a stayable job or not.
There were the peopole, music and moving.
That's it
Through this fes, I can see the people naturally who they are.
I'm very happy!
I feel like getting back myself!!!!!!
I dont know whether marriage needs money or not, even now I think it needs.
But now, I don't judge people from their work or money.
Sooooooo happy!!
I hated myself in a sence judging pepole from their background.
This means I learnd happyness isn't aqual to maoney by this fes.
I felt somthing.
I can't say anything except for that.
And I notice those caused my fear of future.
People are weak, but there is something important to be able to notice when we are weak.
